<p>My audition went horrible... It's mainly because the auditor was completely emotionless and never smiled or showed any emotion at all. It was my first choice but i feel so bad now... I was just nervous the whole time, and him not even showing any emotion made me even more nervous and unconfident. It was just hard to be relaxed. pretty much everyone looked "unhappy" after the audition. I feel like crap.
He never laughed at my piece, nor commented or anything. he didnt stop me at all for both. He asked me tough questions and i answered my best, but it was hard since he was so serious and english isn't even my first language.... I feel like I sounded so stupdi sometimes... but sometimes not at all.
I feel so bad, please tell me what you think about this. did you have a similar experience?</p>
<p>Aw, revereice! I’m sure the auditor is like that with everyone. Plenty of people get into schools after auditions that feel awful. But it’s very hard with your first one, and it will get easier and easier as you go along. I don’t think there’s any way to tell how well you did or what he thought. </p>
<p>D had an auditor like that-- we remember him as ‘the cyclops’. Who knows if she’ll get into that school. But…it really is better for the school if the auditors help the students feel at ease. So maybe that school isn’t what you want after all. Keep going!</p>
<p>Thank you Gwen! I just wish I knew… It made me feel quite bad afterwards. I know I wanted to say SO MUCH, but language got in the way and also my nervousness made everything much more hard… I could have answered beautifully to many questions he asked, but I was under so much tension…</p>
<p>Oh, honey, I’m so sorry that your audition was so upsetting. <em>hugs</em> Gwen is right, though, you really can’t tell what an auditor is thinking, or what the result will be, just by their demeanor during the audition. Try not to worry too much about it, that one is finished. Focus on the next one and try to go in with confidence and a smile. 
There are stories here on CC every year of students who experience similar auditors and think that they have no chance at all, and then end up getting an offer of admission. The reverse is also true. Keep your spirits up and best of luck to you!</p>
<p>Rev, was the auditor Professor Bradac at Chapman? If so, DON’T WORRY. Not to sound cliche, but he literally is like that with everyone-- I made a bad pun at my audition and he looked like he was going to throw me off the balcony.</p>
<p>And guess what? I got my letter from there today. You probably did far better than you think-- hang in there until the spring and we’ll see. :)</p>
<p>Please take to heart the comments made by Gwen and alwaysamom. You can never predict the outcome of an audition based on the reactions of the auditors, whether it be college admission auditions, school show auditions or out in the “real world”. You are going to encounter auditors with all sorts of demeanors for reasons that have nothing to do with you or your performance. All you can do is try to keep your perspective, do the best you can and then move on to the next audition. I know it’s tough to do when you have invested so much of yourself in your college auditions.</p>
<p>I’ve recounted this before but it bears repeating. When my daughter was auditioning for college, at one of her top schools, about 8 bars into her 32 bar ballad, she heard one of the auditors say to the other “She doesn’t have it.” My daughter quietly freaked to herself, felt totally thrown for the rest of the audition and walked out feeling that she had blown it. She felt totally devastated because it was one of her favorite schools. And then she was accepted with a significant scholarship. At other auditions she had, the auditors were very interactive and effusive with praise and she was rejected. And at others still, it was just a very businesslike arms length experience with little or no interaction. </p>
<p>So don’t beat yourself up over the audition. It’s ok that you were nervous - who wouldn’t be ! Just prepare for each one and do the best you can and try to move on to the next one without over-analyzing. Best wishes to you for a gratifying outcome at the end of the process in April.</p>
<p>I have nothing to add, but just want to add encouragement! This is a really rough process, and be proud of yourself that you are getting through it! I know you will have wonderful choices when it is all over.</p>
<p>Try not to let it upset you . . . easy for us to say, right? But in my D’s experience thus far, the auditors appear to try to be really neutral in their reception. In one particular audition with several college reps in the room (Thespian auditions), my D felt that they didn’t respond very well to her pieces (no smiling, laughing, or interactions with her at all). However, she received several callbacks and positive feedback in those callbacks (including some program acceptances). Remember, you can’t read their minds, so don’t try. :0)</p>
<p>My suggestion is to “let it go” and continue rehearsing your pieces and responses to interview questions with a “friendly audience” (family, friends) so you feel confident for your next auditions. For my D, rehearsal has been her greatest tool to overcoming her nervousness. </p>
<p>Best wishes to you!</p>
<p>So many auditors see so many actors every day, and they have a lot going through their heads, so you can never tell what they are thinking. Don’t get yourself down, and if you feel like you can do better, use this experience to rock your next audition! Every program is looking for something different, and you will want different things from schools. Don’t forget to remember that if a school does not fit for you that’s okay; it’s just one more step toward finding the right fit! Good luck!</p>
<p>Perhaps he was trying to “act” neutral to see how you would handle it. I feel sometimes that judges want to “get into your head” so to speak to see how you do with it. The real world is tough and maybe they were seeing how you would handle negative type of feedback in an audience situation. And I should not mean to imply that the neutral is negative at all, it was simply neutral. Maybe like an umpire or ref who are told not show favoritism and be simply neutral. Just my thoughts.</p>