<p>Ahh I'm super tired right now but am desperate for some sort of advice or objective input from total strangers.
I'm a Freshman in college, almost a Sophomore, and I have no idea what I want to do with my life. What else is new. But to speak frankly, I am not by any means an inept person. I was an Honors/AP student in high school, in the top 10% of my class, and am currently going to a ranked university that offered me about 75% scholarship money off the usual tuition.
I think I have great potential to do well in SOMETHING, some sort of field...I just don't know what! Business or Medicine is basically what I've narrowed it down to. I've tried to list out the pros and cons, and there is a long list for both of them.
In short, what's stopping me from pursuing a Business major/career is that I'm a girl--outdated thought, perhaps, but in reality, the most successful business execs are usually men. Plus, there is less stability job-wise also.
In medicine, I think it's pretty obvious. Being a doctor is extremely hard and stressing; one has to really enjoy and love what he/she does in that sort of field in order to reap benefits. You've got to be committed since it takes years of studying after all.
Both fields are competitive, and for the most part, only few actually become successful (whether or not you get that lucky business job, or accepted into a Med school).</p>
<p>I'm just at lost right now; maybe I'm just lacking confidence. I'm that the type of person that once my mind is made up, I'll follow through entirely, EXCEPT making up my mind is a fickle process :/</p>
<p>In any case, aside from evaluating and analyzing Pro&Con charts, what I really want to know is, how does one find out what their passion in life is? Some people just seem to know that they have an inclination toward a certain subject, and pursue it regardless of salary. For me though, yes, I take future income and stability into account, but what would reassure me the most, is if I actually LIKE or LOVE what I'm doing career-wise. Feeling a little dejected and unfocused right now.</p>
<p>Let me know what your thoughts are. Thank you for reading!</p>
<p>Oh side note: I already volunteer at a Children's Hospital, and really enjoy my time there. I did it to observe the atmosphere of a hospital and to see if I fit in. Idk how I'm suppose to sort of do the same for Business. There are so many branches in Business, and its not like I have a degree yet to even intern. Ahh what to do :(
Sometimes I'm like "oh to hell with it all, I'll just marry someone" .... but even marriage is an unstable job in its own right nowadays.</p>