<p>Dear diary (I feel so much more middle school than college writing that),
Please tell me which is better- having lots of casual friends, as in the type with whom you discuss favorite classes and funny life stories over cafeteria pizza, or having one or two best friends, as in the type with whom you discuss classes that are a waste of your existence and quarter life crises over dorm room snacks at three in the morning? I’ve been in college for about six weeks now; while I’ve got the former, I definitely don’t have the latter. And you know what? It’s bothering me. A lot. I know it shouldn’t be, and that forming profound friendships takes time, but I feel like I am missing something here. And as for the whole “classes that are a waste of your existence” bit, I’m taking six core classes this semester, and I only enjoy one of them. I just can’t stand that I’m spending the majority of this semester- half of a year!- on subjects that mean very little to me. I’m almost personally offended by my classes, and that’s not okay, is it? </p>
<p>I’ve learned that the cornerstone of college living is sitting around with people you hardly know, doing nothing. There’s a kind of emptiness to college life that I’ve suddenly noticed: We eat empty calories, watch empty YouTube videos and chick flicks, spend empty hours on empty conversations, and occasionally glance at the empty corkboards and picture frames we hung around our dorms and thought we would fill. I have so many friends here that I can exchange a light conversation with or share a meal with, but with whom can I exchange my deepest feelings, with whom can I share God? I’m actually going to go eat now- I’ve got to wander out into the hallway and see who else is hungry first, and maybe that will be the only thing we have in common.</p>