<p>I'm 19 years old and finishing my second year at a local community college. I'm enrolled under the engineering science program but I don't think that matters because I will not have my associate degree at the end of this semester, and the significance of that is just beginning to hit me. Rather than graduating with a degree I am still without much direction, and I have nothing to show for the past two years other than a lousy transcript. I wouldn't be able to obtain my degree for another year because it would require the completion of a physics sequence which has low availability. I could potentially change my major but I think the soonest I'd have a degree is by the end of the next Fall semester. </p>
<p>With the exception of one course, I've actually performed reasonably well; A's and B's in all classes, with a C or two thrown in. The problem however, is that I failed that one particular course three times. What's worse is that my parents are only aware that I've failed it once (the course is composition). I've led them to believe that I've retaken the course and finished that course sequence. Feel free to comment on that. I've been mentally cutting my wrists over my stupidity for months. </p>
<p>For the first 15ish months after my high school graduation I was very recluse with my parents. I never told them what I wanted to study or what interested me, partly because I wasn't sure myself. I never really had an interest for engineering, but it allowed me to extend my passion for math and science. For several months I considered majoring in physics when I transferred out of this school. After dabbling in it for a while I decided I wouldn't enjoy a career in that field, but it will always be a hobby. </p>
<p>Recently I've expressed a lot of interest in environmental science, sustainable agriculture, and earth sciences. These are the types of fields I was most interested in as a senior in high school, but I abandoned them for whatever reason. I am almost certain that enviro science is what I want to study. I've never felt so strongly about a subject. I only wish I had such a passion when I began my secondary education. My parents sense my desire, and have suggested applying to several universities for months. I would like to attend a university and pursue this dream more than anything, but I just don't see how it is possible. I've been lightly pushing away my parents, telling them that I'm still not sure, and that its too expensive. The truth is that I feel as though I have no chance of being accepted to any respectable university after having failed a basic composition class three times, with no chance to retake it again. Clearly I've made awful mistakes, repeatedly. After reminiscing on them all semester I'd like to say I've learned something.</p>
<p>I'm running out of time to apply for the fall semester but I'm not sure if it's even worth it. I haven't checked my GPA out of fear. I've accomplished so little these past two years, and I think even my parents recognize this. I work a stable job that I've had since high school and it has allowed me to pay for college thus far. But my parents realize that I'm going nowhere and want me to move on. I'd like to, but I'm scared I won't be able to get into any other schools. I'm looking at internships but they all require transcripts as well. I was thinking of moving out to California for a year to acquire residency and then later attend UC San Diego which has an amazing environmental science program. Doing this would also allow me to attend a local community college and build a new transcript. My parents supported this idea but after reviewing the stringent requirements, it could take me upwards of 2 years to acquire residency, if at all. </p>
<p>I suppose my main question here is this: What are my academic options having failed a core class three times in community college. Can I even get into another school? Thanks, everyone. </p>