<p>ahhh, and there's a carnegie hall guy w/ great scores and he's all school president in my school who got deferred...</p>
<p>i cant believe i didn't get in</p>
<p>ath! i was at school, i just have access from the computer in the publishing room
i cried a lot today</p>
<p>becky, you WILL get in come april! and then you can show me around new haven and we'll totally rule the streets!</p>
<p>Still haven't looked.</p>
<p>just scroll until you see the first word. dun dun dunnnnnn</p>
<p>Mail still hasn't come :)</p>
<p>I think I'm about to bust! I applied RD for Yale and I am reading these posts. At the moment, I dont think I stand a chance! Now I have to wait about 4 months to find out if I made it! </p>
<p>Sara7246, I hope you find a thick envelope!</p>
<p>Wow, Nickleby...I'm impressed. I could not have made it this long (I hardly thought I could wait until 5 PM yesterday).</p>
<p>Sara: When are you expecting your letter? I hope mine comes tomorrow or Saturday, and I'm in Ohio.</p>
<p>Good point. If we thought that 1 1/2 months with a chance afterward was hard, the next four months will be hard for all not accepted (probably including myself).</p>
<p>I hope you have your other applications ready...<em>knocks on wood for Nickleby to get an acceptance letter</em>...I'm glad I checked online, because if I had been rejected, it would have given me more time to finish my other apps. (Ah, well it's just a few more days, I suppose)</p>
<p>I'm gonna say what you and I both probably hate hearing....</p>
<p>"If it wasnt meant to be, It wasnt meant to be......make the best where ever you go."</p>
<p>I HATE THAT!</p>
<p>Thanks everyone for the encouraging words! I doubt I will get a thick letter though. Oh well, that's life. Since I live in Chicago, I guess my letter will come Friday or Saturday? I really don't know. I kind of like being in limbo. There's nothing to be upset about. Unfortunately, the real world will catch up to me very soon. Congrats to everyone who got in! And good luck to the rest of the board! I am so happy that I was able to share this experience with you guys. Here's to the next chapter of our lives!</p>
<p>p.s. My other apps (except for Brown - I'm still working on that one) are out the door</p>
<p>Yay Sara! :)</p>
<p><em>fingers crossed for you</em></p>
<p>Good luck! (esp. with that letter on its way to you...:))</p>
<p>And I keep on waiting (and must continue to rant and prepare)...</p>
<p>I like to take things on my own time and own terms, but this is beyond that.</p>
<p>There is an element of fear involved, fear not of only of rejection or the negativity of deferral, but the future of my fear itself.</p>
<p>I sit at the computer waiting for myself to be ready for the decision, but I have just now come to realize that I never will be ready. For the euphoria, anxiety, or sadness that awaits, I fear all with my very soul. While of course the euphoria would be prefered, even the positive end to such a long and hard wait will be a strain.</p>
<p>If this board is about anything, it is support through the tought times in life. For us, this is one of the hardest. It is our very lives that hang in the balance, and however the schools choose, our future is uncertain. Acceptance provides assurance, and even deferral lets us cling to that last bit of hope. But regardless, our lives are still unknown, and our futures undecided.</p>
<p>I sit with a page open before me, and a login button screaming for my touch, and I fear that whatever lies on the other side of that gate, it will be my future. For better or for worse, our lives have had little change the past 17 years compared to what they will experience next fall. I await that future with hope and open arms, but am unwilling to give up the past so easily.</p>
<p>Even if my decision does not point to New Haven, it will begin the transition in my life. Living the life and applying the applications has been that life for not just the past year, but in some respect all of my years. And so it will change, not with a bang, or a wimper, but the click of a button that will send my into the unknown.</p>
<p>As Robert Frost said, a path diverged in the woods. It is my choice what path to take, but not what are availible, and that frightens me beyond belief. Three paths lie beyond that button, not just in relation to Yale, but a future that may not be possible, and I can't close the door on any of them without feeling a sense of regret.</p>
<p>And so I will continue to prepare, and finish the wait. I thank you for your support, and hope that all of us will continue on one path togeather, a path of our own choosing that will lead us into a future more bright than even Yale can offer.</p>
<p>so.... does that mean you're gonna click or not?</p>
<p>:) You're just like that guy on the thread from last year who refused to go check his status until he finished his Stanford essay. Made everyone more anxious than he was.</p>
<p>did he get in?</p>
<p>Nickleby, I have to leave for China in five hours, and I should be in bed by now, but I want to hear your news!!!! Sigh. Hopefully I'll have internet access in China so I don't have to wait another two and a half weeks in suspense, albeit a less stressful suspense.</p>