<p>I'm a woman in my early 30s who's been working as an actress and producer for years -- I started my own equity theatre company 6 years ago and was a professional dancer before that. I havee my undergrad and a master's from an Ivy league university and a fairly impressive resume. I minored in theatre in undergrad and had a GPA over 3.75. I already have teaching experience at the college level. I want to go to school to really study acting intensively. Overall , I think I pretty damn good candidate for grad school.</p>
<p>I went to the URTA auditions this lass week in NYC. I was screened through and received only positive feedback on on my initial audition form -- they called my classical monologue classy and my contemporary a risky choice that paid off -- "character was fully inhabited" it said. The callback for me wasn't as good but still a strong audition, if you ask me. At the end of the day I only got 1 interview and it was with a school that asked for interviews from all of people who were called back. So it wasn't me -- they are not a popular program and wanted to talk to everyone and anyone. There were at least 19 schools there recruiting.</p>
<p>What is wrong with me? I have an impressive resume (regional theatre credits and I started and run a theatre company with an AEA contract and a $300,000 budget). Of course the callback people didn't see my resume, just my audition -- maybe the screeners were persuaded by my resume that I'm better than my audition was (they to to see my resume ahead of time)? Why was I not worth 15 minutes of anyone's time?</p>
<p>Let me point out that I'm Caucasian, 5' 9", blonde with an athletic body and a 34D chest. I'm attractive in a porn star sortof way, not a model kind of way, so I've been told. I have actual modeling experience. Maybe they think I'm a bimbo based on my appearance? I'm often cast as the sexy vamp rather than theingenue because of my appearance -- would being less attractive help? Do they maybe think I'm not ready for grad school because they think I'm too busy running a theatre company? I have someone to take over when I leave -- but no one interviewed me so how would they know that?</p>
<p>My dream school (located in my home town) was there. The head of acting, whose co-head I hired for a show I produced, was there. I walked right up to him and handed him my resume, like many others did, my resume and told him the that they are my #1 choice and I'd like to audition on campus. He said they were only looking order men and repeated said "good luck" and "hope your interviews at other schools go well, make sure you follow up with them". He was most definitely giving me the not interested vibe. I also Lund out that he asked several women there for interviews, mostly older and plain looking. Very disheartening...</p>
<p>So what should I do? Follow up with other schools, including this one, that had no interest in speaking with me? What did I do wrong? </p>
<p>Also, I did walk in interviews with Rutgers and the New School... They were nice but also questioned my reasons for getting an MFA. "You're so bsy" -- but i want to imprve so i can get even more work, hopefully on Broadway. Why is this degree off limits to me? I have a right to further my education. I'm not trying to go to Yale or NYU. I have my sights much lower yet no one wants me. And I'm a legit dancer -- if you need someone to dosplits and multiple turns in your musical, that person is me!</p>
<p>I am rather depressed.... I'm ashamed of what has happened... My boyfriend, a professional actor with numerous film credits, keeps telling me "you have a mind for business-- go to law school or become an agent" But I don't want to go to law school or be an agent someone lose -- I'm a legitimate performer and want to pursue that! Many people are telling me not to. Why? Why? WHY?</p>
<p>May I also point out I conduct auditions all the time and see actors with MFAs that make you wonder if they ever even took an acting class -- I mean BAD ACTORS, with nothing more than the credits from graduate school b their resume, 5, 6, even 7 years later. I have more credits than some actors twice my age..... Don't schools want someone like me???</p>
<p>Again, what is wrong with me? And what can I do about my defects!</p>