Hi everybody,
I just got news back that I did not pass calc 2. As a computer science major trying to transfer to a UC in 2018, this sent shivers down my spine. I spent most of my time this quarter focusing on my data structures class (which I was happy to get an A in) but I experienced some serious anxiety during my final calc final and my grade came crashing down in what seemed like one day. I feel like such a fool for neglecting my math class so much and I will seriously be rethinking the way I allocate my time. Obviously my grade was not headed in a good direction before the final and in a way, I’m almost glad that I can retake it to “replace” the D on my GPA. Still, having to compete for a spot in such a competitive major with a D on my transcript feels a little like I’m setting myself up for failure.
I love computer science but I’m also interested in business and I have a strong creative mind (I’ve always thought about industrial/product design). I’m outgoing and presentable and I haven’t met many computer science students at my current school who are very similar to me (I’ve always thought that this could actually be a good thing but who knows). Sometimes I get scared that I’m only staying afloat because I’m spending all of my time on CS work and that I’m still in the beginning and I may not be cut out for it. I’m only at a junior college right now and at this point I can’t even imagine what a UC program is like. I don’t have a deep rooted love and passion for computing but I’ve always been a content creator and I have a great deal of interest in getting a product to consumers - especially software due to it’s reachability to people. I am very capable (ignoring the fact that I just failed calc) and I feel that I have many strong aspects of who I am that aren’t being breached by computer science.
This is me freaking out and questioning my major and I have tons of reasons to stay where I’m at. Still, I think I have good reason to question what I’m doing. What do you think?
Thank you so much for reading and I’d greatly appreciate any feedback.
TD/DR - Failed Calc 2. Questioning CS. I love CS but I’m open minded to many careers and majors.