Graduate studies in the Russian Federation: Mixed emotions

Hi, Everyone!
in a few months (if all goes well) i should be entering graduate school in either one of Russia’s largest cities (Moscow or St. Petersburg). I study and love Russian history, you see. So, to finally be going there is absolutely amazing. not only that, but there’s been quite a mess in my family lately. so, going to school (anywhere really) acts as a kind of reprieve from the madness. Also, i should mention that going to school abroad has become more and more attractive to me as i’ve become more and more bored at home – i feel like i’m in a rut and studying abroad could fix that. Plus, all of my former Russian history/politics professors studied in Russia.

But, and here’s the problem, i’m also really, really scared: I’m leaving the security and comforts of home (for the very first time in my life) for a very different country. Now add to this, the absolutely terrifying pep talk my mom gave me. My mom kind of worried me the other night by warning me of the possible dangers lurking in the city – stuff that could happen in any city, really. Because the picture she painted was so graphic, i fear for my safety (none of this stuff crossed my mind before. I guess because i earned my Bachelor’s degree in a city close to home without any problem). she thinks that because i’m a shy person i won’t be able to survive or defend myself, if need be.

I’m scared. I’m afraid of leaving my mom and home. i’m afraid that something terrible will happen to me (and i’d have to return home a failure). i wake up like a million times a night fretting the day i have to leave. i’m terrified, absolutely terrified. have i made the wrong decision? its too late to apply closer to home. what do i do? what would you do? have you studied in Russia? how’d you like it?

I think you should talk to students/faculty who have completed a program in Russia in the past few years. They will be able to offer you advice and tips about Moscow or St.Pete. I am originally from Moscow, graduated MGU long time ago. Let me know if you have any specific questions.

I think study abroad program will turn out to be an outstanding experience. Use common sense when out and about, like you would in any major city.

It’s OK to be worried! And scared! Just don’t let fear make you miss this opportunity. Whether you pick Moscow or St. Petersburg (I would pick the latter, just my preference) you’ll meet plenty local students who will help you ease your culture shock. Which you WILL have, everyone does. Russians can be enormously warm and protective: they will want you to have a good experience. They will tell you where not to go, how to look out for yourself, and how to be safe. Odds are, you will be invited to parties you will have trouble remembering the next day (that vodka! Be firm about saying ‘no’ or at least ‘enough!’) You haven’t said what kind of program you’re going with - but presumably they’ve sent students to Russia before. If so, ask organizers to connect you with past participants. Or search out Facebook groups of past/current students. It’s a great way to get tips and maybe make connections with Russian students even before you leave. Read up everything you can about both cities – Lonely Planet Thorn Tree forum is a great place to post questions and get helpful answers. Chin up! You can do it, lots of international students have gone to Moscow/St.P before you and loved it.