I’m in my 5th year of school now and finally a senior, on track to graduate this year if I can keep up with courses. Since the 2017-2018 year, though, I’ve been on a steady downward slope of feeling overwhelmed with and hating school. As someone who loved pre-college school, I’ve been having a miserable time with this.
This year it’s gotten worse. I’m working a min wage job and still rarely have enough to cover my expenses (my parents help cover them but they’re not in a great financial position either and have to ask my grandparents sometimes). I keep falling out with friends. My depression and anxiety are getting worse and no, my school doesn’t have mental health resources and I don’t have insurance. I ended up in the hospital for a stress-related issue last term which threw off my degree plan. I’ve already had to withdraw from two terms and have two Ws on my transcript. I know I should be applying to jobs now but I’m not even sure I’ll actually be graduating this year. And in my situation graduation is the only thing that’ll allow me to get a non-min wage job (hopefully).
I feel like the walls are closing in on me, can’t afford books without inconveniencing my family, if I drop school that’s affecting my transcript and delaying my career/dragging this out, trying to get through school is sometimes resulting in less-than-ideal grades, and I barely have time to think let alone be an actual human with interests, a social life, and aspirations which is just making me feel worse. What do I do?