Help me become optimistic!

Pre-College Issues High School Life
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<p>This probably may seem like the typical teenage rant, but seriously, senior year has been the most miserable period of my life. I feel alienated from my "friends" and just thinking about the two classes I have (AP Biology / Chem) makes me depressed. For the former, I've never really felt that I've been wasting time up until taking that class. Biology has never been a love on mine, heh. I've never felt so... depressed. And before anyone makes any assumptions, my problem can't be remedied by just "going out and joining a EC!" I feel my time is over here, and I really don't like talking to anyone at my school, unless we're joking around. And even that has grown old. I feel everything about my school is pointless. All I do is go to my two classes, browse the internet, and play basketball. Ridiculous. It's funny -- 3.5 years at school has truly made me realize how I have never been able to have a conversation with any of my peers about my true hobbies. I've just been conforming, if anything these past four years and I'm desperately yearning for new people and new experiences. NYC has given me the ability to have a broad taste in a lot of things, but I still feel hindered in my particular community. So yeah, that's how I feel... any suggestions on what I should do? As of now, I've just been working towards benefiting myself - learning a new language, getting a job in Midtown, reading more books. But still, if I could I would immerse myself in that, rather than go to school. Regardless, school is an albatross that won't leave me for quite a while. maybe i'm just yearning for my "dream" schools and new people, which is probably why most of the schools i've applied to are in ca</p>

<p>What's ironic about it is that my social life was pretty active the past three years of HS. But I just don't want to rekindle it. I don't get what's wrong with me.</p>

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<p>"I have never been able to have a conversation with any of my peers about my true hobbies."</p>

<p>What are those "true hobbies", and why don't you pursue them?</p>

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<p>meh, just music/literature taste - nothing THAT notable. what i meant is that there are few people who want to talk about those kinds of things at my school. i used to hang out with a lot of people in my grade, so i'm not basing it off of an assumption.</p>

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<p>Well this worked for me. Maybe it can for you too.</p>

<p>Is stressing 24/7 going help you in anyway?</p>

<p>Just think about that.</p>

<p>Just go out with an open mind and do what your thinking of doing with negativity set aside.</p>

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<p>Go somewhere new that nobody in your school would go maybe go out to eat alone(sounds lonely; its not as long as you pick the right place) which shouldn't be hard in NYC</p>

<p>If your tired of your school then get away for a bit it'll be fun and make you appreciate the famaliar more.</p>

<p>:suggested with caution, may be a horrible idea: Get drunk, it'll make the people your with more interesting and you will want to talk to them more. And yes I know this may cause some other problems and I'm sure thesmiths along with everyone else on earth knows this too so no need to point it out once again.</p>

<p>Start messing with people. Introduce yourself by different names to people you don't know. Act completely different from one class to the next. Try to con and prank people somehow. It will atleast keep your mind occupied.</p>

<p>Just suck it up and stop being all depressed act as happy as possible and you'll start to actually be happier.</p>