<p>Hi. I have this tendency to go into these existential crises, and my current one revolves around deciding what to devote myself to.</p>
<p>I'm currently a high school senior, and I'll probably be going to Duke U next year for college. I'm strong in most subjects (super in humanities and social sciences), but I'm pretty afraid of chemistry...</p>
<p>For the last few years, I've been in love with cognitive science and for a longer time I've been studying philosophy (though less seriously in my opinion). First I read Hunt's Story of Psychology, and then at some point later was able to get my hands on things like MIT's Encyclopedia of the Cognitive Sciences, Pinker's How the Mind Works, Lazarus's Emotion and Adaptation, and I was captivated. It was the first subject that ever really took to me. I reorganized my entire identity around it. I can now pretty readily read graduate level works in cognitive science without much difficulty, unless it's thick in neurobiology or mathematics/computation.</p>
<p>I think I liked it most of all because it gave order to the turmoil that I found in my own mentation, and had this way of making mysterious and interesting even the most commonplace experiences and activities. Life...got color.</p>
<p>So the tension has shifted from finding something to care about to finding a career path that involves the cognitive sciences as well as the other amenities of a good career path. Like...healthy job market, opportunities to make a difference (and be recognized), good pay, and a sense that I am good at what I do.</p>
<p>And I'm not sure. I have such an incomplete picture of what I'm capable of.</p>
<ul>
<li>Can I become a great AI guy or computational neuroscientist if I'm beginning college with little programming experience?</li>
<li>Can I do well in biology — premed or neurobiology — when I struggle to do well in Honors Chemistry? </li>
<li>Can I develop what it takes to compete in very competitive academic job markets?</li>
<li>Am I truly good at understanding cognition at this point?</li>
<li>Am I just too humanistic-minded to do well in science?</li>
<li>Might I make a bigger impact in some unrelated or only loosely related field?</li>
</ul>
<p>I'm more than a little lost. I need help deciding what to go into, what to major in, what opportunities to devote my efforts to...</p>
<p>Can you help me? </p>
<p>(PS: Please don't tell me to just wait and then experiment in college. I kinda need to have a vision of the future in order to effectively function. Otherwise I feel purposeless and demotivated...)</p>