So, I’ve officially decided to move back home for college for several reasons.
- School back at home is a whole lot cheaper. I went to a private school because I wanted to gain some independence and experience what its like to be a real college student. I mean who could blame a young 18 year old kid who wanted to be out there? I wasn’t too concerned about finances because I had a good scholarship until it hit me that I have to be about 30K in debt which IMO is not something I want to look forward to.
- Its easier to find jobs back at home. My current school highly recommends that I do not get a job because nursing major + jobs = too much physical and mental stress. I don't have a car here either and taking the bus is difficult since it doesn't have reliable timing and kinda sketchy sometimes so transportation is not easy. Being at home makes it easier because I have a car and the nursing workload isn't as super rigorous and has less classes than the amount of courses I am taking right now. Plus my home's school does not have classes on Fridays and the latest class they told I could take is around 2:00pm. My mom recommended me a part job which offers flexible hours and pay so its great :D
- IMO there is really no social atmosphere at my school. I mean there are clubs and events that I sometimes to go but barely anyone at my school participates in. Its a small school filled with commuters who do something outside campus because they claim there really is no "social spirit" here.
- I currently live at my aunt's house which is filled with loud people who make it difficult to study around. I like them and they're friendly but there are too much distractions.
- Being here has not made me the happiest person I used to be. I used to be so diligent and hardworking and now I'm more stressed, angry, and about to give up on college because I can't handle being here. Its not so much academically (i don't want bad mouth my school) but financially and socially, I've decided not to be here. Even my counselor and advisor said its not my best fit to be there.
My real question is how do I not feel guilty about leaving. My parents worked extra hours and got extra job just to make it through this year for my tuition and rent. The people here think I’ll be a quitter who gave up after one year even though I’m getting a nursing degree at home. I can hear people talking about me about how my decision is not right and I’m making the wrong choice. I just hate being talked about and looked down upon on simple decision that makes me feel better about myself!! I just hate it and want to move on but everyone is putting pressure on me and talking behind my back…