<p>I think i'm scaring the s*** out of me.i don't go out anymore. i'm usually in my bed all day either sleeping, doing nothing, or just feeling sorry for myself. i've lost my appetite and hardly eat. i even thought about committing suicide, but i'm over that now. i seriously don't know what to do with my life. even my parents are worried (and my dad is never worried). i'm supposed to be happy... i'll be attending my dream school in the fall, but for some reason, i'm not. a break-up, a fight with a friend, college anxiety, and other stuff all got to be too much. i feel like there's no hope, like I can't breathe. and i'm so f***ing lonely. I've always been on top of everything, and I know I should toughen up and be a man but i really don't care anymore</p>
<p>Maybe you're depressed... you should seek counseling. And if you ever feel suicidal again, you should call the suicide helpline. And anyway, no one ever said you needed to "toughen up and be a man." That's a chauvinistic phrase, anyway. I know more tough women than tough men by the way.</p>
<p>depression. i think you need to talk to someone. in all honesty, those psychologists that have you lay on the bed and just talk really really help.</p>
<p>What they'll do is let you lay down and tell you to talk, about anything you want. Usually after a while of just talking, whatever you're keeping in just bursts out, which is the purpose. They might ask you to elaborate on a point, basically they're really receptive.</p>
<p>Helps get things off your chest. Maybe you should look into that?</p>
<p>haha i know how you feel. been there, done that.
counseling = good</p>
<p>meanwhile, do something thatll help you vent. write, punch a cat, something. well not really punch a cat. but you know what i mean.</p>
<p>what school are you going to?</p>
<p>Why is your screen name im<em>not</em>a_girl?</p>
<p>haha I thought the title was I don't know if I'm a girl. lol.</p>
<p>Maybe getting involved in some kind of volunteer work would help. Like working with people who have less than you. This would help you to a) feel needed and b) get outside of your own little life. Also, I know this sounds kinda cliche but the "7 Habits of Highly Effective People" have helped a lot of people to get a move on with their life. You learn how to be proactive and get things done, set goals for yourself so you know where you're going, get along with people better, etc.</p>
<p>Good luck!</p>
<p>What you described seemed to be classic symptoms of depression, which is a medical problem, not something related to lack of willpower.</p>
<p>Of course, since I don't know you and am not a doctor, I can't diagnose you. However, I can urge you to get an appointment as soon as possible with a medical doctor, and to be honest with him or her about your symptoms.</p>
<p>More than likely s/he will run tests to see if you have a disease like anemia or a thyroid problem that could be causing your symptoms. If there's no cause like that that is found, get a referral to a psychiatrist or psychologist who is experienced working with adolescents with your kind of symptoms.</p>
<p>If you are suffering from clinical depression, usually the best treatment is medication plus therapy. Many people, including many teens get this kind of treatment, and find that it works wonders. I myself have been in therapy and take antidepressants, which totally changed my life. I had no idea how depressed I had been until I got on antidepressants. As a result of the meds and therapy, I no longer am tired all of the time, but am active confident and gregarious. </p>
<p>Best of luck to you.</p>
<p>That break-up might have caused your depression/loneliness. Did the person you were with mean a lot to you after you've thought about it? Do you want he/she back? He or she could have been someone you loved. Love can cause depression.</p>
<p>Masterus, while the break-up may have contributed to other factors, I seriously doubt it would be the sole one.</p>
<p>"Cheer up, kiddo." You have a bright future ahead of you.</p>
<p>Volunteering helps A LOT. Believe me A LOT. </p>
<p>Volunteering at a homeless shelter is a great experience. Throughout the activity, I realized how lucky I am for actually able to smell breakfast when I wake up from my cozy bed. I am thankful for everything around me... simply I learned soooo much from the activity. Believe me, after few days of doing homeless shelter volunteering (or maybe after the first day), you'll feel so happy for being able to help.</p>