<p>Hmm.<br>
Honestly I think that I am giving up. I can't help my feelings for him, but I hate the drama that goes on before a relationship happens. I try my hardest to avoid doing something stupid, like getting hurt and embarrassed again. It makes me very uncomfortable and awkward (who wouldn't feel like that?) so I guess I'm trying to run away from my problems. Then again, is it really that necessary to pursue every guy I have feelings for? Gah.</p>
<p>I am always holding back. Then regret it at least a bit later. Stupid.</p>
<p>well not really, but in the korean national team there's a guy (married, unfortunately) who kisses his wedding ring whenever he makes a goal. that's so sweet...he's really good looking and the wife's good looking, too. ;)</p>