I feel like a 30 year old man going into college.

[soultahn]

<p>Some context:</p>

<p>I ran away from home when I was 17. Since then I have moved from basement to basement, and finally onto living in my own apartment for the past year.</p>

<p>I am 19 now. </p>

<p>I attended a community college for a semester, so I'm entering this new lively college as a second semester freshman.</p>

<p>I look at the other freshman that are attending and all of them seem so excited for finally being on their own and starting their experience, and even though I am only one semester ahead of them, I feel like I am used to this independence from living in this apartment.</p>

<p>I know this may seem jumbled, but my thoughts are all over the place, and I am afraid of being too conditioned to independence to enjoy my time in college. I want to let loose but I know I would be forcing it.</p>

<p>I have become introverted, I have lost touch with most of my friends, and I don't want this to carry on to college.
Anyone got any advice?</p>

[uddhavagita]

<p>“Be the change you want to see in the world.” Gandhi</p>

[hellojan]

<p>There’s nothing wrong with introversion. And, honestly, it seems like you’ve got a lot of work to do to figure yourself out - especially in the new context of a new school. That’s a good and healthy thing.</p>

<p>Follow your instincts and don’t beat yourself up for feeling a certain way. Just go with it.</p>