While preparing my financial aid documents for next year, I realized recently that I accidentally did not report an outside scholarship from last year. I honestly thought that it was reported already, I thought that I had taken care of it when I was notified about receiving it, but I guess I either remembered incorrectly, attempted to do it but did not finish, or otherwise messed up. I am really freaking out because I want to be honest and let financial aid know what happened, but I am also terrified that they will not believe it was a mistake (it honestly was, please don’t try to accuse me otherwise), or cut me off from financial aid in the future, or expel me, or arrest me, or something.
The scholarship was to study abroad at a university affiliated with my home uni, totaling $20,000. The majority of that was for housing, plane tickets, extra expenses, etc. that would not have gone to my home university anyway, but I think about $4,000 was specifically for tuition for that semester. The scholarship went straight to my personal bank bank account in separate installments throughout the 8 months I was abroad.
There are some additional complications.
- My family is going through a financial crisis and an extremely nasty, bitter divorce right now. Long story short, my dad has been emotionally, physically, and emotionally abusing my mother, who is very mentally ill, and my family recently had to get a restraining order against him. He racked up tens of thousands of dollars in credit card debt and hasn’t paid rent, phone bills, medical bills, etc in months, and there are collection agencies constantly calling my house. He usually does most of my financial aid paperwork because he doesn’t want me to see our family income or tax information. This includes taking out loans. I have been told the loans are in my name and I am responsible for paying them back, but I have never signed or even seen any documents so I am now not sure if this is true.
- I am currently taking a semester off studying in China. I was originally going to study abroad with a program affiliated with my home university, but thought it was unreasonable to pay private US tuition ($30,000+ without financial aid) for Chinese university classes that cost only about $1,000. Therefore, I can’t go to financial aid in person and explain everything, and will have to do everything over email while abroad. a. I used some of the leftover scholarship money to finance this semester, because I thought that everything was taken care of through the loans and stuff that my dad applied for, but now I am not sure. The money I used for this was given to me at the very end of my study abroad program, like 2 weeks before it was over, so I would have had this money on me whether I had reported the scholarship or not.
Basically, I am really really financially illiterate, have very little information about the nature of my financial situation, and am not sure exactly what happened, or who to reach out to for help. My family cannot help me. I want to pay anything that is owed and am even willing to take time off school and work full time in order to pay everything back if I need to. I don’t want to commit fraud, I don’t want to have this guilt on me, I just want to set the record straight and be honest, but I also don’t know what to expect. I almost wish I had just not even seen this and gone on being blissfully unaware of the situation, but I also don’t want to get a call 10 years from now from the IRS or my school rescinding my degree or saying I owe the government money or something…
I want to email financial aid, what do you think I should say? What do you think their response will be? Could I lose all financial aid for the remaining three semesters I have left, or would I just have to pay back the $4,000? Could I do that through taking out extra loans, or would I have to pay it up front?
Thank you, and sorry for the long post. I just don’t know who to reach out to for help. I am very confused and I feel guilty even though it was a mistake and I just don’t want to have this on my back anymore. I wish I had just properly documented the scholarship last year because this wouldn’t even be a problem, I swear I thought it was taken care of, I am really not sure what happened, but I need to fess up to my mistake and set things right, I just don’t know how to do so without ruining my academic, financial and professional future.