So I’m 18 years old currently and am in the first year for a new bachelors program for mechanical engineering. And I absolutely regret choosing to pursue this field. The biggest factor in my decision to choose mEng was from my dad, who adamantly wanted me to because he’s studying to be one. I always heard about the large salary and how amazing it’d be to design something. I never really pursued any other options and believed mEng was the only path that “pays”. Every other path I found in High School was definitely not for me, and engineering was the only one I didn’t completely dislike (until now).
Well, I really should have done research and am paying for it now. I hate the course work (I was never the best at the analytical), I hate the people that I go to school with, and I just hate most of the everything in the program/school. I’ve had to face problems that come with the new program not being “entirely figured out” and also from fellow students in my program. I realized a few weeks ago that I absolutely hate engineering in general and just want to leave.
Leaving this program altogether has been a heavy decision that’s been growing in the back of my mind since day one. But it’s always been accompanied by the pressures of uncertainty of “where do I go after?”, or “what if my backup plan leaves me broke?”. I’m not too worried about people backing me on a decision to leave, as I’ve read and heard everywhere that it’s completely normal to decide. I’m much more worried about what I’d do after.
Until my friend opened my eyes into the industry and world of animation. It was just after first semester that I began to work on drawing things and gained a whole motivation to pursue this cool hobby. I kept drawing and drawing for my winter break, and kept going sometime into second semester. Although, with the increasing workloads of mEng, I had to give up drawing for weeks on end to do course work I hated.
And now I’m stuck on what to do.
I am definitely not on the level required to do any major animation program (my friend is in the highest degree for animation) and I just started. I might just like recreational drawing, and might completely hate professional animation (if I even get there!).
But with the rising demands of my course and the constant advice from my peers (who’ve been in a similar situation), I’ve been slowly stressing over what decision to choose. They tell me that wasting time and money doing a program I’ll eventually leave isn’t worth it. But I really don’t want to be caught realizing this “passion” is just a phase, and eventually regret leaving mEng.
I still have until the end of the semester and 4 months to decide, which I will use to see how far this “passion” goes, but I am very stuck and confused.