I’m 19 years old and I’m currently studying mechatronics engineering on college, and I absolutely hate it. It’s not that I suddenly started to hate it, to be brutally honest, I realised I hate it when I was already in second semester, but I thought “Maybe I just hate the core classes, you know, what all engineers need to take, once I get to my degree classes, it’ll get better!”, yeah well, it turned out to be even worse. I absolutely hate mechanics, physics, diff eq, and so on (you know… classes I’m supposed to enjoy because they are degree oriented). The only subject I really enjoy and I’m really good at it is programming (OOP, web design, server management, etc.). But guess what? I don’t want to be a programmer either, even though I enjoy it and I’m good at it, I don’t like working as a programmer (I have worked as one), it’s just a tedious, unfullfilling and lonely work, and I don’t want to sit down 8 hours a day infront a computer and write tons of coding lines for nothing. Yeah, the pay is good, but I rather be happy than have a lot of money, I don’t care about the money, as long as I can live good (pay food, rent and maybe a car), I’m ok.
I completely agree I never did a full research before deciding what degree I wanted. I just heard “engineering”, it sounded interesting to me, I was told they had high salaries, and decided to submit to it on 2 different universities (I only got into one).
So I’m sure what I’m going to do, I’m going to finish this semester (whether I finish in a good way or not) then I’m going to take a semester off just to work, and after this I’m going to decide what route to take. I’m thinking very seriously into medicine or any health related degree, it’s something I really see myself doing it, and I would really like to work at a hospital and being able to help people. I’m not interested on the research part of medicine, just the practical part. The only reason that’s stopping me from applying right now it’s that it’d take me 5 more years to graduate as a General Surgeon (“Médico Cirujano General” in my native spanish) and then 2 or 3 years to get a speciality (I’d love pediatrics), and college is free in my country (it’s like 200 USD the semester) so I don’t have an economic problem, it’s just an age related concern.
So my question is… am I a failure for all of this that happened to me? I know I’m the only reason for these failures, so it feels like crap.
I’m luckily enough that my mother supports me, and she told me that whatever route I want to take from now it’s on me, but she won’t accept another “I hate my degree again”, so I need to be totally sure of what I’m going to do. Any advice?
PD: Sorry for my bad english, I’m a native spanish speaker trying to learn english.