I’m currently in my first semester of my sophomore year in college. It’s not going too hot. My grades are bad and my freshman grades were just average. I can’t bring myself to try hard enough since I’m not focused at all. I am always distracted by the uncertainty of where college will lead me, or if i should keep attending. Nobody knows their future of course, but it’s a very uneasy feeling when every day i have to stare at a paper and think, “how will this benefit my unknown future career path?”
Speaking of careers, I have no interests other than designing and just doing things on my own terms. By that i mean i hate taking orders from people. I despise it. I haven’t decided any major other than my current one, Business, which is the easiest, blandest (is that a word?) degree i can think of. I know office jobs aren’t the only thing a business degree has to offer, but I get depressed by even thinking of working in an office getting bossed around at my cubicle, so I don’t really know if i should stick with it. I need to think of a new degree, and that degree depends on the university (I’m currently attending CC, i will transfer) and the school depends on my barely acceptable 3.0 high school GPA. I feel stuck. I honestly can’t think of anything i’d really enjoy that would eventually allow me to earn a higher-than-average living.
Don’t tell me to take a career aptitude test. Those things are so predictable it’s hilarious.
Have you thought about taking a break from college after this semester and working full time? At the very least this will give you more time to think about what you want to major in and your work experiences may provide you with insight into whether you want a business career or whether you should even return to college.
I don’t think you need to take a career aptitude test. It seems clear that you are not very interested in college at this point.
Thank you for replying,
I’ve taken a semester-long break already and decided that I feel like attending college keeps me from being/feeling lazy. I’m actually not sure how to put how i feel. I have a weird thing going on with myself, i don’t know. Im deathly afraid that i won’t be successful. I’m constantly reminded of what i might grow up into by my middle-aged grocery store coworkers. They just look really sad. Like their life went nowhere. I just don’t know where I’m going. I don’t feel comfortable going to school, but at the same time i don’t feel comfortable /not-going/ to school. I just don’t know.
You should be taking a wide variety of classes to try to figure out which of them interest you the most.
You say designing…What? Do you paint furniture? Do u do crafts? Can you do design work on a computer? Try to focus on the type of design you like…Is it interior decorating? Arranging things, party planning?
There’s Landscape Architecture too which is a form of design - or just Architecture period.
Get a job at some place with designers and see how you like it.
The OP hasn’t been on the site since February 15. 
I think you need to get out of your head, and enjoy this time and explore. College is not for everyone, nor does it have to be done at a certain time. Your time in college, should you decide to stay or return, will be better spent if you have more of an idea of what you want to do, or if you can enjoy the process of exploring. You sound miserable, and I think you should look outside the box. (see the links below.) That said, one other option is to keep taking general ed classes, exploring all kinds of areas, and don’t worry about figuring anything out. Just enjoy learning for the sake of learning. And one final thought, you seem like a deep thinker, and/or perhaps you’re depressed? You might really enjoy and benefit from the counseling/therapy process. Maybe your school health office would be a resource for you to find some counseling or even a therapy group of other students feeling similarly.
https://www.uncollege.org/
https://www.globalcitizenyear.org/think-big-3/?gclid=CIO-strSu9ICFYS1wAod2SwPoQ
http://www.unschooladventures.com/
https://www.wheretherebedragons.com/