Good point- I’ll admit I can be materialistic and I feel like that clouded my judgement, though.
Don’t “act fake”. Be yourself. Surround yourself with kids like you. You’ll find your tribe. If in February you still haven’t found them, transfer for fall 2019 to your flagship. It’ll still be there.
What major are you thinking of? What exact classes did you hope to take and what classes do you have to take instead?
You may be falling victim to imposter syndrome. “The feeling that you don’t belong. The fear that you’re not good enough and will be “found out” “. This is extremely common.
This is all an illusion created by fear. Fear of the unknown. Change.
I would say you take some time to remember what you liked initially about the school and what your hoping to accomplish. Perhaps consider putting it down unwittingly.
^ What @privatebanker said.
The tricky thing is, when we become overwhelmed with very strong feelings of anxiety and doubt, those feelings can be so darn strong, we assume those feelings are telling us some truth about the world. That is not always the case.
My suggestion is to stay the course. Get some therapy sessions in ASAP and talk it over. Let your fears out.
One of our kids really, really did not like her college at first. She went reluctantly. Called us on the first month, in tears, saying she wanted to transfer. Complained about her classes, complained about the other students, complained about the professors, complained, complained, complained. It was, no doubt about it, a tough unhappy first year.
Then, by the very end of freshman year, after she had found an apartment off campus for the next year, and had her acceptance into her major, and had signed up for classes…well, things seemed a bit better.
Definitely, by the end of summer, she couldn’t wait to get back to school and see her friends. She also threw herself into some new clubs, a new job off-campus, and re-signed her lease with the same girls for junior year.
Huge 180 change. It’s the same school! She changed!
It’s sounds like you were accepted to an amazing school. Get help! What you are feeling is normal! But not necessarily a sign that you made the “wrong decision”.
Take care, and good luck!
I meant to say put it down in writing. Not “unwittingly”. :)>-