I start college tomorrow and I'm on the verge of tears!

<p>If my high school life wasn't bad, I would have gone to college confident and excited. But I'm the complete opposite. I'm so scared, it's unreal. Here's why:
9th grade: I went to a school were none of my best friends went to, ended up getting depressed, and my academic work suffered from it.
10th grade: Got transferred to the school my friends were at. I thought that things would be great and everything would be fine, but I was dead wrong. Mid-year, my friends screwed me over(long story). My acedemic work again, suffered.
11th grade: Focused on my school work a lot.
Now: I should be a senior, but last year I realized that high school isn't my thing, so instead of going to school, I'll be going to my community college and taking college classes for high school credit. </p>

<p>Classes start tomorrow, and I really ddn't think I was gonna be as nervous as I am now. I'm just scared that the same thing that happened to me in 10th grade(thinking that my life would be better when I transferred) will happen to me in college. I always think I'm being judged and hate it. Nothing benefited me in high school except now I have a low self esteem, and am very self-conscious.
What should I do?</p>

<p>You’re in a fragile state of mind. Does your college have a counseling center you can utilize today?</p>

<p>I agree. Take some time for yourself, as well, just relax and try to regain your composure. I’m confident in your ability to come out of this. If you really don’t want to attend your high school, community college will definitely be that new experience you’re looking for. But this whole low self-esteem and always being judged thing has got to stop, nobody should be like that. And try opening yourself up to new friends, from your story, it doesn’t seem like you tried meeting new people.</p>

<p>its good to be self conscious but if you let it affect your day to day life, then that is a huge problem. you should get advising or speak to a counselor.</p>

<p>Instead of coming here and winding yourself up, use today to treat yourself. Go out and get a fancy drink and your favorite comfort foods. Run yourself a bubble bath. Read a trashy novel or magazine. Do whatever relaxes you. Go to bed early and lay out all your stuff for tomorrow. You won’t have many chances to do this when school starts.</p>

<p>sounds like ur going to a community college which i think will be a nice transition for someone like you. in community college a lot of people just take classes while they work and already have families. so the pressure wont be on for you to make friends. depending on who goes to that college you might find people similar to you. the thing is there is no point in worrying about this stuff, just relax at take in whatever comes your way.</p>

<p>^^ exactly. people really just come for their classes and leave, maybe eat or study if they have some time in between. It isn’t the social place that colleges and high schools naturally are. of course, there is plenty of opportunity to meet people if you’re trying to, but it certainly isn’t really even necessary. I met a few people at my community college when I was there that I could talk to a little waiting for class to start or do projects with but for the most part just do your schoolwork and maybe get a job or something to also pass the time until you transfer.</p>

<p>Our local CC isn’t really a “social” place. I mean, you can meet people in your classes, but that’s about it. No one really cares about that other stuff; they just come to class and go home or to work. So you won’t be pressured to make a lot of friends or feel like people are judging you, because they aren’t. Don’t sweat it.</p>

<p>I only went to CC for summer classes. But yeah, it was basically go there, go to class, leave. There isn’t really much of a want to hang around after class to talk to people.</p>

<p>Think of Community College as a high school with strictly AP classes and less drama. You’ll be fine.</p>

<p>nobody’s judging you… they’re too busy wrapped up in their own lives to care about your existence. harsh, but you need to hear it if you want to get over your social anxiety.</p>