I'm so dead....

<p>HUGE problem. I would really appreciate it if anyone could please help me out. PLEASE. I will love you forever.
Okay. So I'm in grade ten this year and I'm taking grade 11 advanced math (functions).
Report card marks are due this weekend, and all of our assessments are in.
I have:
87 on one quiz, not sure what on another quiz but it's probably pretty bad too, and 63 on two tests. :( :( :( :( I don't know how this happened.
At first I understood NOTHING but I went to my teacher and asked for help and everything.
All of my homework was fine but the test was so insanely hard. Stuff I'd never seen before.
And now I've failed math. </p>

<p>BUT:
1) I came from a different school last year and didn't learn some stuff that they already learned. I thought I overcame that, though.
2) I'm a year younger than everyone... so maybe it won't look that bad.</p>

<p>I can't believe this. :( My life is so over. My parents are going to hate me for this. They have expectations from me.
I've just let them down. :( I wish I could talk to God and just ask Him what I've done wrong and how I can fix this.</p>

<p>My dream for myself is to go to a top-tier university (hopefully an Ivy) and become a doctor of some sort (hopefully a specialist). Now I don't think that's possible anymore. :(
It's only first semester and I still have two more to go, but I recently found out that universities see your marks PER SEMESTER and not just the end of the year.
SO. I was thinking I could just redo the class in summer school.
But... would that look even worse? Would the universities KNOW that I went to summer school?
Would it at least count for something that I knew I could improve so I redid the course?
But my dream of an Ivy is dead now, isn't it? :/ I'm really disappointed, I don't know how I'm going to forgive myself.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! HOW DO I FIX THIS MESS? :(</p>

<p>Dear Leftyy, please go seek some advice from a trusted adult, perhaps a guidance counselor. I am a parent in my 50’s and one thing I know for sure is that things that seem big in the moment are often just a blip on the screen. Don’t worry about Harvard right now, just do our best and you will wind up in a good place.</p>

<p>Right now there is a discussion on the Harvard ■■■ site discussing how hard it is to maintain a good GPA at H for med school applications. State school kids are coming out with higher GPAs many times, since the competition and curves are not as tough. Harvard organic chemistry and life science are constructed to “weed out” the less brilliant H students. </p>

<p>Don’t worry that this one class is derailing your life. You will find your way to medicine despite these temporary hurdles. Your parents will survive if you attend a second tier college and you could actually get merit scholarships, which the Ivies do not give.</p>

<p>Ask your school how summer class grades apear on your transcript. If you have to retake the class, fine. What matters now is that you learn the material so you can succeed in Calculus eventually.</p>

<p>Thanks, everyone. :frowning: I can’t believe this happened. I feel like such a failure.
So I guess I’ve completely lost even the slightest chance I had of attending an Ivy…
This sucks. :frowning: I really need to check about the summer school thing.</p>

<p>At least you tried.
Plus its not all over, you may still have like a C as the final grade. Hopefully your math teacher does not determine your final grade due to 3 test. So if you were persistent on everything else, and have good grades in other classes. Your GPA may go down a point or so.</p>

<p>No one said you lost every chance at an Ivy. You need to deal with the math class now, and talk to the GC and teacher about how you can improve. </p>

<p>Tenth grade is far to early to be fretting about Ivies. Worry about your current assignments. If, at the end of 11th grade, you have good stats that is when to begin focussing on which colleges are a fit.</p>

<p>It’s a grade 11 class, that’s why I’m so worried about this. D:
Today I found out that when my school sends transcripts to universities, they only see the final mark in a class.
I’m going to the guidance counselor on Monday to ask about summer school.
If it doesn’t show on my transcript that I bombed the class and chose to redo it, then I’m going to summer school.
If it does show… so be it.
I still have two semesters left to improve, and the teacher says he grades harshly at the beginning so we only see improvement.
It’s just that I’m SO worried. :frowning: I can’t disappoint my parents.</p>

<p>Hi Leftyy, </p>

<p>All of your posts, from the moment you joined CC, seemed to be about what classes you should take to look good for college and how you’ve failed this class, how you didn’t do so well on that class :(… Really, relax. Enjoy your high school years while it’s still there and just find something productive and meaningful that you really love and devote yourself to it.</p>

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<p>It’s always difficult when you switch schools. I came from a very laid back high school so it took me some time to adapt to college-----give yourself a little time to get used to things because you become disappointed.</p>

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<p>Looking bad to whom :(? Why do you feel that someone’s always judging you? Your parents are happy that you’ve tried and will always try your best. Moreover, your life is your own, and you’ll be happier if you take a moment to appreciate what you’ve already achieved :).</p>

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<p>First of all, this is only the beginning of the school year and you have tons of time to improve. Life is a marathon, not a just sprint. Secondly, going to an Ivy or becoming a specialist are not equivalent to having a happy life. Which one’s more important?</p>

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<p>Oh please :p! I’ve had Cs on assignments in high school and still ended up with tons of options as to where to go for college. In fact, ironically, I ended up as a freshman here at Harvard.</p>

<p>Feel better (with lots of smiley faces), </p>

<p>Calico</p>

<p>Thanks so much, again. I honestly do really appreciate it. :slight_smile: So, I went to the GC today and she told me that if I fail the class (legit fail, under 50%) I will go to summer school to redo it and it will show on my transcript. But she said that’s not going to happen to me. I told her that my mess-ups on the two tests I’ve had were totally stupid and would never happen again because I understand the material, and she said it was just a one-time (I guess 2) fluke that wouldn’t hurt me much.
Also I found out that only grade 12 marks are shown per semester and the rest are just finals. :slight_smile: If I want to bring up my mark at the end of the year I can go to summer school and upgrade it… but I really want to avoid that.</p>

<p>Anyway, I’m very sorry for the rant and thanks once again to everyone. :slight_smile: I think I can do this now.</p>