Hi everyone,
Ive seen a lot of these and they seem really helpful and i’m in need of major help. So my freshman year of college I got accept and went to SUNY Albany. I was so scared because I never really ventured out in the world. I don’t know if it was me or the school, but something was not clicking. I didn’t even get to see the school before getting accepted so everything felt so rushed. I was always babied by mom and got mostly a lot of freedom so I didn’t really think I needed to go away. When I got there everyone could tell I didn’t want to be there. I hated it and cried almost every single day I was there. So I withdrew and came back to my home town, and attended a private university that cost wayyyyyy too much. They were the only school accepting because the year had already started, and skipping a semester wasn’t going to be it for me. So, I went there from my freshman year to my first semester of sophomore year. I left because of the money situation and didn’t want to be in debt with them anymore, and their faculty really was the worst.
Then I attended a city college and didn't have to pay a cent to them. I was so happy because I went to a free school, I was close to home, and I had my boyfriend. I love NYC, its where I grew up so I didn't have a problem. I used to have my own bedroom at so I really was living a good life. But then I got my bedroom taken away for family reasons. And with the COVID-19 going on I've been thinking of my academics and why i'm really going to school. It didn't take a scientist to realize I wasn't doing good in any of my classes. I think the reason for this is because I go straight home or to my boyfriend after classes and don't really pay mind to school, and just go by. I do not want to be like this anymore, I love my boyfriend but I know he is a distraction. I know I can be great but I cant do it here, where i'm sheltered. At first I was going to apply to Syracuse University but the cost is worse than the private school I went to.
I want to major in business and really take my classes serious and get the college experience I never got. I know I had the chance to get it but I chickened out. I have grown so much and know what I want and I guess my only question is, is this possible or a good idea? Am I just overthinking it and should stay home?
also, my mom was so angry I left Albany so I’m hesitant to even speak of it.
I guess now I just want to be 100% sure and not just make the decision without thinking logically. my mom is whole other story but ill get to her soon.