Is it normal to wish you could go back to high school?

Back then I was a stereotypical Nerd. I was socially awkward, introvert; I spent my time either at the cafeteria eating alone, or at the library. I was terrible at sports, and though I was really into anime, games, and literature, it was hard for me to make friends-- I made a few, though.

Anyhow, I had more friends while in HS than in college. I don’t know why, but I want to go back to when I was in HS. College isn’t hard, but the fact that I’m friendless, my lack of motivation, and the nostalgia, makes me wish I could go back and re-do all the stuff I didn’t do.

I never thought I would say this, but I never ever went to a party or a homecoming. I never dated, or went to the movies. I was the type of person who stayed at home playing videogames with some other friend, joking about how stupid it should be to go to those events. But now, I feel so pathetic about that.

I spent so much time inside, playing games and watching anime, or reading fantasy, but now I do really wish I had more outdoor experiences.

I feel old, and more alone than ever. 2 years in college and I haven’t made any friend. I feel so awkward because of the way I speak. I never noticed that being socially isolated could drastically damage my social skills. I get down to the point that I can’t see someone in the eyes, or even talk. I get so nervous when I have to talk to someone, even when I have to ask simple questions.

I wasn’t like this before. I know I wasn’t, but now that I am I wish I could go back to the time when I felt less pathetic.

Okay, but there is no time like the present to change things that aren’t making you happy!

You don’t have to leap in and do every single social thing, but challenge yourself to do SOME social things.

  1. JOIN CLUBS. Is there an anime club on your campus? Go to it. Is there a game club? Go to it. Are there other clubs that interest you but you are not really sure if you would fit in? Go anyway.

  2. VOLUNTEER TO HELP WITH STUFF. Can you help with theater tech crew, or volunteer for Relay for Life, or help build a composting bin with the environmental club? These are great ways to get social and meet people under really low key circumstances!

  3. BEFRIEND NEW TRANSFER STUDENTS. They don’t know anyone. Now they will know you.

It is actually WAY more fun to be social in college than in high school for about a million reasons, including that college people are on average more mature and open-minded. So go make a couple new friends!

And trust me, you are not pathetic. It is 100% fine to have seasons of your life where you keep more to yourself, and other seasons of your life where you are more social. Sounds like you are ready for a more social season! I 100% believe you can make this happen. :slight_smile:

Don’t panic, you’re still very young and have plenty of time to fix the situation. Start practicing your social skills. There are all kinds of books and videos on social skills that may help. Try out any clubs or meetups you might be interested in. Talking to a therapist may help. You want to learn to stop concentrating on how awkward you feel and start focusing more on other people and your common interests. Good luck!

Don’t look back…look forward! Decide what you want the next semester and next couple of years to look like and take steps to make that happen. Remember, “the best is always yet to come!” You can do this - you will be great! Maybe the past happened to help you shape your future? Now go get 'em!

You can’t go back. Even if you could it would not lead to the changes that you are desiring now. Look forward, use your current feelings to catalyze changes in a positive direction. Find out if there are any self help groups at your school’s counseling center or even a nearby mental health center or a church even. Explore the possibility of finding a life coach. Take action to learn what you feel like you don’t know.

They have parties and homecoming at college too!

I would suggest:

  1. Going to your college’s counseling center and talk to them about what you are telling us
  2. Try to find a club where people play games because you enjoy that
  3. But also, get involved in a service type group where you work together to help others.
  4. If your college has a homecoming football game, ask if anyone in your dorm/class is going.
  5. Go to events on campus…concerts/lectures/activities