I got off the waitlist for spring admission to liberal studies core at NYU. I eventually want to probably study environmental studies in CAS (or science, but they only offer studies at NYU). I am still not sure about what I want to do. They offered me $9170 for a scholarship, making the total tuition come to about $42k. I would live off campus/no meal plan, so I will add about $10k onto the total estimate for 9 months rent, subletting the others. I am prepared to make sacrifices for affordable rent, and I am from Connecticut and know people in the city so this is reasonable. I would try to graduate in 3 years to save money.
My parents make about $150k a year now, although my father was unemployed for a year, 3 years ago, so we have little savings, no retirement savings, and I generally worry about my parents’ finances. My mom might want to quit her job and do the same thing working for herself to make more money, but there are still risks involved. They can pay about $25 k a year, and I would take the $7000 in standard govt. loans and work-study. That brings the difference to about $10,000, or $20,000 with rent. They have a home equity line of credit (lower interest than student loans) so would pull from this for the roughly $10k a year, while I would work and save for my rent each year. This would total about $22,000 or less in student loans for me for 3 years. I am very good at saving money and living frugally, but I also have a lot of money guilt and keep questioning whether this is even worth it. At the end of the day, a classroom is just a classroom and people of to amazing unis for next to nothing in Europe. Extreme costs are normalized in this country, and it disgusts me. So while we could swing it without going into crazy debt, even if we had all this money sitting in the bank, is $150k minimum worth spending?
My only other options are the University of Washington or roughly $40k a year, across the country, or to stay here and go to CCSU for a year, then transfer somewhere better which also has its own risks. Staying here makes me very depressed because I worked so hard in high school, did very well, and then graduated a year early to travel and work because I was so tired of being in that awful environment, but this also made my applications look weird and I didn’t get into my true dream school. I have already felt “stuck” for a long time, and want to move on with my life.I Avery independent and don’t want a traditional, boring college experience where everyone has to do the same thing. Also nyc is appealing because of opportunities, and the fact that I am 2 hours away and can take advantage of the city while I live close (my parents will probably move to the west coast later in life and I will want to be on the west coast as well, meaning I don’t want to stick around in NYC for a decade).
I have talked to so many people, and have racked my brain trying to figure out what I want. I worked so hard so that I could have good options to get to a better place, and now I feel like all of my options come with extreme negatives that are making me unable to look forward to anything. I would really appreciate any help or advice.