So the school year at the public high school I went to freshman year is starting very soon, while BS doesn’t start for another couple weeks. My friends have been preparing for that, comparing schedules, that sort of thing. Freshman year was a lot of social upheaval for me, so these friends are all pretty new. We don’t have a lot of history behind us. Still, they are people who I like a lot and who I like spending time with. I’m worried I will come back home and invite everyone out and they’ll be cracking inside jokes about class and gossiping about people I don’t know.
I’m worried that coming in as a sophomore at BS will mean the same thing going into a cliquey high school from a small middle school did freshman year: that I will have to try to break into really tightly-knit groups and that people who already have their groups won’t bother with me. I’m a really social person, so the beginning of freshman year without close friends was so hard for me. Just like the end of freshman year, with a good group of friends was so amazing for me, and I hate to leave that.
What’s worse is that some friends have connected me with their friend-of-a-friend-who-goes-to-your-BS who I have talked to over text and it’s been pretty lackluster. Or it was fun and then I said something awkward and it stopped going well. Also, my revisit day was not so hot.
I would appreciate any thoughts or advice.
(Side note: Some people might wonder why I am going at all if I am leaving behind such a good situation and did not have a good revisit day experience, and tbh, I wonder that, too. However, I do have my reasons, so I would appreciate if we didn’t dwell on things that aren’t really changeable at this point.)