<p>I have come to understand a number of problems I that I have encountered when reading history AND literature.</p>
<p>I lack the ability to read intensively. When I read literature and history, I cannot visualize it. I don't seem to engage actively in the historical narrative. I can't visualize the geographical places, and I can't read a work of literature for very long without becoming bored to death.</p>
<p>I read a passage during a practice SAT about changing literacy patterns in the modern era with the advent of the internet. Because there is so much information available at our disposal, all of it becomes overwhelming and seldom do we humans have the patience or the psychological discipline to read a work of scholarly merit without getting irritated at the lengthy passages that lack academic utility.</p>
<p>This is my problem. I always instantly go to Wikipedia for all my answers to life's questions. I have come to realize that, unless I withdraw from the desire to knowledge as it is factually, without the deep meaning and connotation, I will always lack the intellectual discipline that is required to understand the full gyst of an author's argument and will never be able to settle with a valuable resource.</p>
<p>I find myself desiring beefy books of any kind of academic classification; from economics to physics and from Japanese to sociology, and will spend hours looking for a book in a library that meets my temporary criteria, yet I seem to not have the patience to even read more than ten minutes of each particular work.</p>
<p>I have found a word to accurately describe myself: A dilettante. It's a person with amateurish characteristics that has frivolous interest in various disciplines.</p>
<p>Does anyone else struggle with the same problem?</p>