<p>Hey everybody! So some of you might have seen from my previous posts that I totally hate college. Though I blamed unsupportive parents and just about everything and everybody for why I had such a crappy time during my freshmen year of college there still comes the issue that I went to college for reasons that were totally ridiculous. I went to be the child that I never got to be in all of my life. To play sports and roughhouse with the guy friends that I wish I had; to party till I drop and drink away all my problems; and be a part of a group of friends that made me feel like I actually belonged to something. I had all these high expectations that I had believed that going to college would fulfill, but in the end I was so destructively disappointed that I was filled with such hatred for everything and everybody involved with my college. In the past year I've seen so much and done so much that I now have a better understanding of what my situation was and what I was truly feeling during those times.</p>
<p>Well I've made the decision to drop out. It was a hard decision to make, but at this point there was no choice; but to leave based off my own will. I was always told that getting a good education would free me of all the burdens and miseries that my family had to go through because of their lack of higher education, but in the end I've found that my independence and ability to take care of myself has been more appealing. Despite my lack of a higher education, I find that there is still very much that I can do and even though I still continue to harbor ill-feelings toward the college I used to go to and much about the college lifestyle, I won't give up on the chances of a higher education and will continue to pursue a college that fits my special needs. In the mean time I will continue to work as hard as I can to secure my independence and work on the things that bring me joy.</p>
<p>I just wanted to thank everybody that read my posts and tried to help. I was really in a time of need and beyond everything all I wanted was for someone to care.</p>