<p>Hello,</p>
<p>I will be using this forum to vent my feelings. I have been feeling lost for quite a while now. To begin with I am a perfectionist, and due to this urge, I am looking for the perfect "path" of life. Now in my English class we have been discussing Transcendental theory, and this brought me to Into the Wild, more particularly Chris McCandles. I really like the way he broke from the conventional walk of life. I also appreciate this one kid in my class, who is amazing at running track. This person lets call him Frank, he is humble and honest. Frank does not buy excessive Nike plated clothing and shoes, but he still manages to win his race. Also Frank is good a Biology, unlike other kids in my AP Bio class, he can finish a lab without looking it up online and copying off other students. I really appreciate this. Now I really think that I am very impressionable. This past week I noticed that my science teacher dresses kind of whore-like, and I concluded that women are lust driven creatures that should be treated as just colleagues not potential boyfriend-girl friend relationship, where women evaluate my worth. Then later in the week I saw the first episode of Mad Men, and now I think men are just the worth filth in the world and very IGNORANT. I do not know what to think now. I feel this type of rapid judgement is why I can not find myself to be sociable outside of online, where I have never meet the people and they seem perfect. I feel like I have a "true" friends, one that is always loyal. Do not get me wrong I have friends, and they do have stuff to offer ( I guess), but I find them very obnoxious.</p>
<p>As I said at the beginning of this post I am feeling very lost, and would greatly appreciate advice.</p>
<p>ps I can not drive myself to read the post that I just typed, for some reason.</p>
<p>I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY!!! For some it comes naturally :)</p>
<p>Thanks</p>
<p>There is no doubt that you are very, very, very impressionable. My advice? Learn how to deal with other people. Friendships aren’t always going to be perfect. Are you unfailingly loyal? Props if you are. Focus on improving yourself rather than other people!</p>
<p>There’s no magic secret to happiness; unfortunately (and ultimately, I think fortunately), people are not perfect, nor is the world. Life does not go according to plan. I can’t tell you how to find happiness, but I can tell you to not try and be like someone else. The old cliche of being yourself really is true. I enjoyed reading Into the Wild, and get what you’re saying, but don’t think you specially try to model yourself after him. </p>
<p>Just do you.</p>
<p>I don’t even know what to say about your philosophical rant about women and men…</p>
<p>This is one of the stranger things here. Have you looked into behavior modifying drugs.</p>
<p>And something to note: you aren’t just impressionable, but also likely to be a bigot.</p>
<p>@observeraffect I do not think I am ready for drugging myself, I think it can be fixed naturally. lol Though I do respect your suggestion</p>
<p>@hawtChoc Sorry about my suggestion. It was not meant to be taken that seriously. To be honest, you just need to think for yourself and distance yourself from influences. Just thinking about why you think the things you think can probably help a ton.</p>
<p>I posted on your other thread, I would apply the same advice of bonding over points of alignment. I’m sure there’s nothing too different about your high school compared to others, so it looks like you are simply really hyper critical. There is a ton wrong with the world, and a ton wrong with most people.</p>
<p>Do you happen to have OCD? not unofficial OCD, but actual OCD where you can’t function without a specific order. That may be driving your perfectionist outlook.</p>
<p>One thing I have noticed about your posts is that it is all about everyone and everything else. What about you? What are you besides a perfectionist? An avid reader? A philosopher? A scientist? A writer? A comic? I think you should ask yourself more questions about yourself instead of focusing on the outside world. You said you want the perfect path, but how can you know what the best path is for you if you don’t know yourself? Or have you figured all of this out already?</p>