<p>Forgive me for the length. </p>
<p>All through highschool I had my heart set on NOT going to college. I have always been an average student with not much talent in any one area and not much confidence either. I figured no college would want me, so why bother? My senior year I really got into the culinary arts and decided to go to culinary school. Unfortunately, the summer after I graduated I had a total change of heart and withdrew from the school I had registered with. It was a community college, so I didn't have to apply and bite my nails while waiting for admission. There is a CC closer to my home so I signed up there and recently completed my first year with a GPA of 3.29. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't kick myself for not being more confident and aggressive. All my friends went of to bigger and better places but I am stuck at home. But that's not my point. I have plans to transfer and seeing as it is summer, I need to get some schools in mind. There are so many out there and I have been scouring sites like College Board and Princeton Review to try and find something that could be right for me. </p>
<p>I live in Michigan and would like to stay in state but recently I started looking at Illinois, Ohio and Indiana schools. I must reiterate, I am an extremely average student. I have a horrible track record with math (tears, pain, anguish, denial, depression and, worse, bad grades) that has left my GPA crippled. I went to a small charter school for the arts where I didn't take any AP courses and the same math class (pre-algebra) three years in a row. I got strong grades and took dance, art, drama, band and choir all four years. Surely that has to make up for something. I got a 22 on my ACT because I bascially filled in random bubbles in the math section (and still managed a 15). Would any good college want me? I don't really do the extracurricular thing but people have told me I can write, and indeed, I love to.</p>
<p>The problem is, I am a transfer student and websites like College Board and Princeton Review are set up to help highschoolers with Ivy League aspirations. I want to go into English or history or literature (indecision is fun!) and so I am looking for a smaller liberal arts college. I have looked at U of Michigan, MSU, Eastern Michigan, Knox College, Lake Forest but the majority of them are so big, I'd feel lost. I am used to smaller schools with weirdo, artsy people and personalized educational experiences. The one thing I love about my CC is that my teachers and I have actual relationships, they know my name and their classes are small. I would also love to study abroad though as a transfer, I don't see that as an option. In Michigan, there are either the huge state schools or smaller religious schools, which I would like to avoid like the plague. </p>
<p>I am also broke. I have no money, credit, familial financial support or hope of ever paying on my own. I know smaller colleges are pricey. Any advice on this as well? If you know of any good, smaller colleges in the Midwestern area that absolutely love 19 year-old tranfsers with mediocre grades, a weak academic background, a slacker extracurricular record, no money and a small talent for writing, a love of learning and puppies, could you let me know? I can use all the help I can get.</p>