<p>This weekend is sort of the last 'break' I have before I go full throttle studying once more to study for the big finals, which are 2.5 weeks away, so I thought I would visit here when I had the chance and just...express my thoughts. </p>
<p>I come back to this forum once more to sort of gain some feedback for a confused college kid. Before I begin, I would like to state immediately that, yes, this Monday I will visit the undergrad advisor as well to talk to him/her about all of this, I would just like to hear from you guys so I gain some insight beforehand.</p>
<p>So right now I'm at a point where it's almost near impossible for me to enter my university's (University of Washington) beloved department of Computer Science and Engineering. I have tried very, very hard but I don't think I stand even a chance with my competition (just so you know, the University of Washington's CSE program is ranked top 10 in the nation, it is very prestigious) with how my GPA has been looking for the critical Math and CSE classes. Friends have told me to consider another major to try that is easier (note that I haven't declared anything yet), but having already taken 2 CSE classes, that would be a difficult choice to make. </p>
<p>But that's not the major reason. I think that, after having taken 2 CSE classes (Java programming), I have come to enjoy CSE studies greatly, and I wish dearly to pursue it. However, I am going head to head with very talented people here, including those who have programmed for many years before even entering college and thus breezing through these very classes I struggle to do decently in. Also, having taken a year off between high school and college and combining this with my 'averageness' and my poor high school education (I got rejected once by my university, at which I reapplied the next year and got accepted), I feel like a crippled student in not just the CSE and math classes, but studies in general. </p>
<p>I do not hesitate when I say that I have tried my best so far. My college lifestyle has just plain sucked, I have found no time whatsoever to get out and try new things and I find myself constantly in the library studying away, with a past-hobby of playing Go (a board game) once in a while as well (it was truly the only thing I had outside of studies, which I have quit a month ago or so in order to focus even more on my studies). The few friends I have made (and kept before college) are too precious for me, and if I were to lose them I am afraid depression would consume me. </p>
<p>I considered perhaps to focus on another area of engineering such as EE, but with only mediocre math grades, I would have to excel in Physics and/or Chemistry, which would be difficult for me having had no experience with either of them from HS. My uncle told me not to worry about going to college with a weak HS education because I would re-learn the materials anyways, but the pace of the class is terrifyingly fast and also my competition has already been exposed to the materials presented to them, meaning I am at a curve disadvantage when it comes to the exams. I could back away to an 'easy' major like Business, but this feels like a give-up tactic, and though I have some interest in business it is not something I wish to study for 4 years. </p>
<p>My father just called me a few hours ago and asked over the phone if I was doing well in my studies (I just arrived home for the weekend). I couldn't have given a more deceitful answer in my life. Even if I were to 100/100 all 3 of my final exams (I don't think I need to explain the impossibility behind this feat, but this is what I am aiming for nonetheless, hence studying earlier than usual), my grades would come out between 3.4 - 3.6, this is only mediocre at best to my department. I'm just so lost and confused...sympathy, tips, guidance, ANYTHING would be appreciated. I need it ever so badly. </p>
<p>PS: I tried searching Google + UW search engines, but nothing I can find shows up regarding re-taking a class other than that it can't be done more than once and it requires explicit permission. I can't find anything regarding GPA change (retaking classes I did poorly in the past in the summer is an interesting though I think), but I can ask this to my advisor on Monday, along with all of my thoughts that I just threw onto this post.</p>
<p>Technical info:
I'm a freshman at the University of Washington - Seattle.<br>
My fall quarter classes & grades + my winter quarter classes & approx. grades (I haven't taken the finals yet...):</p>
<p>Fall:
Math 124 (Calculus I - Derivatives) - 2.5
CSE 143 (Java programming) - 2.9
ECON 200 (Intro. Microecon) - 3.6</p>
<p>Winter:
Math 125 (Calculus II - Integrals) - ~2.8 right now, Final is worth 40%.
CSE 143 (Java programming II) - ~2.9, Final is worth 40%.
LING 200 (Intro. Linguistics) - ~3.0, Final is worth 35%.</p>