I have a low GPA due to personal reasons and I realized how much I screwed up. Can someone either give me hope or make me face reality?
Grade: 11th/Junior
UW GPA: 3.6
W GPA: 3.9
(I have a D on my transcript. Just thought I’d put that out there.)
Race: White (Syrian)
SATs: Didn’t like my score. Planning on retaking it in March with the goal of getting a 1400-1590.
AP tests:
AP Biology, AP Spanish 5, APChem, AP Studio Art
Haven’t taken the tests yet but aiming high (4-5s)
Ranking: School doesn’t have that
Extracurricular:
-Taking care of my younger brothers (mom goes to school. explanation below)
-Tutoring at library
-Work/interning at a lab (10th-12th)
-president of National Art Honor Society
-swim team 9th-now
Will be in varsity this year
-piano (doing it as therapy)
-painting/drawing
Goals:
I’m hoping to become a yearbook editor next year. I’m pretty sure I’ll get accepted since I’m close with the other editors and the teacher.
I also plan on working with foster care kids. The court system is absolute crap when it comes to children and I’ll get into that later.
One of the librarians really like me and recommended me to apply and try to become a Library Board representative. I have to ask her about the name. It’s sounds really fun and at this point in my life, I need to have fun and stop being so depressed about life.
-When I have free time during winter/spring/summer break, I’ll be working on some art pieces to apply to competitions. Hopefully will win one of them.
Backstory:
Ok now for the explanation. I’ve been dealing with A LOT. I’m going to do a quick run down:
-Dad was abusive towards mom.
-He beat up mom until she called cops. He got arrested but came back for forgiveness.Mom forgave him.
-Suddenly he held a restraining order against her and falsely accused her of being mentally unstable and abusive to him( pretty funny. He’s 6 ft and she’s 5’1 to give you reference. Good job dad)
-Was very close to mom so this was absolutely devastating. Wasn’t allowed to communicate or see her.
-dad tried to manipulate me but failed so he decided to also falsely accuse me of being abusive towards my brothers. He claimed that I was mentally ill and dangerous so I needed to be put in a boarding school or to an institution.
-I wasn’t abused physically but emotionally. I don’t want to say what happened because it stresses me out. There were times I wanted him to hit me so I had a reason to leave. He did drag me on the floor and push me on the floor at some points but I was scared of what would happen if I told someone.
- Brother ran away first and I did the same too. Now we live with my mom and refuse to see our dad.
-dad fighting in court accusing me of things and forcing us to see psychologists that literally do whatever you want if you pay them money lol
-financial problems which is fun
-now I’m pretty much scarred and depressed TBH
I know that I shouldn’t be stressing about school because community college/ transferring is a thing and I’m already going through a lot but I still want to try to get in my first year of undergrad. I know people will judge me for going to cc and I know that once I hit 18 and everything stops, I’ll regret not going to a nice university.
This ended up being a rant too so I apologize and thank you for reading till the end.