I have a low GPA due to personal reasonI have a low GPA due to personal reasons and I realized how much I screwed up. Can someone either give me hope or make me face reality?
Grade: 11th/Junior
UW GPA: 3.6
W GPA: 3.9
(I have a D on my transcript. Just thought I’d put that out there.)
Race: White (Syrian)
SATs: Didn’t like my score. Planning on retaking it in March with the goal of getting a 1400-1590.
AP tests:
AP Biology, AP Spanish 5, APChem, AP Studio Art
Haven’t taken the tests yet but aiming high (4-5s)
Ranking: School doesn’t have that
Extracurricular:
-Taking care of my younger brothers (mom goes to school. explanation below)
-Tutoring at library
-Work/interning at a lab (10th-12th)
-president of National Art Honor Society
-swim team 9th-now
Will be in varsity this year
-piano (doing it as therapy)
-painting/drawing
Goals:
I’m hoping to become a yearbook editor next year. I’m pretty sure I’ll get accepted since I’m close with the other editors and the teacher.
I also plan on working with foster care kids. The court system is absolute sh** when it comes to children and I’ll get into that later.
One of the librarians really like me and recommended me to apply and try to become a Library Board representative. I have to ask her about the name. It’s sounds really fun and at this point in my life, I need to have fun and stop being so depressed about life.
-When I have free time during winter/spring/summer break, I’ll be working on some art pieces to apply to competitions. Hopefully will win one of them.
Backstory:
Ok now for the explanation. I’ve been dealing with A LOT. I’m going to do a quick run down:
-Dad was abusive towards mom.
-He beat up mom until she called cops. He got arrested but came back for forgiveness.Mom forgave him.
-Suddenly he held a restraining order against her and falsely accused her of being mentally unstable and abusive to him( pretty funny. He’s 6 ft and she’s 5’1 to give you reference. Good job dad)
-Was very close to mom so this was absolutely devastating. Wasn’t allowed to communicate or see her.
-dad tried to manipulate me but failed so he decided to also falsely accuse me of being abusive towards my brothers. He claimed that I was mentally ill and dangerous so I needed to be put in a boarding school or to an institution.
-I wasn’t abused physically but emotionally. I don’t want to say what happened because it stresses me out. There were times I wanted him to hit me so I had a reason to leave. He did drag me on the floor and push me on the floor at some points but I was scared of what would happen if I told someone.
- Brother ran away first and I did the same too. Now we live with my mom and refuse to see our dad.
-dad fighting in court accusing me of things and forcing us to see psychologists that literally do whatever you want if you pay them money lol
-financial problems which is fun.
Dad is a surgeon so court has a bias towards him because “Wow! You’re a doctor?!”. Even tho it’s proven that he’s an abusive misogynistic man. Now he’s claiming he has neck injuries but I already know he’s lying so he can leave his job. He already mentioned leaving his job. He really hates paying child support that much lol.
-now I’m pretty much scarred and depressed TBH
I know that I shouldn’t be stressing about school because community college/ transferring is a thing and I’m already going through a lot but I still want to try to get in my first year of undergrad. I know people will judge me for going to cc like family (bc the culture sucks. Was already accused of being a slut since I don’t see my dad. Even though I literally have no interest in guys and am very much a virgin. Probably due to all the stress) and I know that once I hit 18 and everything stops, I’ll regret not going to a nice university.
This ended up being a rant too so I apologize and thank you for reading till the end.