<p>On a whim last week I filled out an application for the National Guard. I filled it out mostly because I was sick of hearing my mom complain about how much college is. I don't mean that in a negative way, I am SO greatful for her help. I just hate hearing about it daily. It makes me feel really bad. I am already taking out the max loan I was approved for and I have recieved close to 20,000 dollars in scholarship. So there really are no other options for me besides not going or changing schools; both of these options would upset my mom more then paying tuiton. </p>
<p>So I was feeling all "independent" and spent close to five hours filling out the form. Things have moved awfully fast since then and I am set to swear in late next week if all goes to plan (pass physical, get high enough test score for my MOS (aka job), etc). Now I am panicking. I've had a really rough summer. I've had to move hours away from my friends to help out family and it has been nothing short of a diaster. I am worried that in six months this could be a decision I'll really regret. Plus I am not the military "type", not that there really is a type, but... I am girly, bubbly/people orientated, love artistic things, shopping, goint out to eat, partying, working with children, plus I'm full of philosophies, principles, and dreams. I haven't worn tennis shoes in who knows how long (I am small though, barely am over their minimum weight requirement... aka weak). </p>
<p>On the other hand it could be a great thing for me and I'll never know until I try it. It could help me with self esteem (if I can make it in the military that means I can literally do anything haha) and motivation. I would learn and try things I'd never thought possible. The money is great and the job I'd get sounds fantastic for me/my personality. I'd get to travel. It only requires one weekend a month/two weeks a year (except for basic/mos training). I'd get in great shape and could travel often for free. It could also give me a leg up for my future dream career (government, CIA, or FBI). </p>
<p>Disadvantages: No long studying abroad, will miss a semester of sophomore year due to basic/training, an 8 year commitment, and I loose one weekend a month. It will be harder for me to go out of state for internships (most likely impossible), but I would be able to go out of state for law school possibly. It is also a huge adjustment ontop of starting a college where I know no one. </p>
<p>Other things I want to do in college: join a sorority, try out clubs, get a 4.0, hold leardship positions, work as a tour guide, travel.</p>
<p>I guess my main issue is if it is just fear holding me back or is this something I don't want to do? I am so confused. Plus I'd be so embarrased to back out. I have a great recruiter and a great job. I feel like every hour my feelings on the situation change. Advice would be really appreciated. I just need the opinion of people who have nothing to gain/lose in this situation! Along with any military experience/stories.</p>