No growth, no passion throughout college

College Essays
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<p>Ever since graduating I have realized that my life is nothing like I want it to be. I honestly regret most of my decisions I made throughout college. I had no focus, should have worked harder, and now put myself in a very difficult situation for future employment. With this said, I graduated from a top tier school (my dream school) and thought when I graduated that those were such great years—I made such great friends, learned, etc. But as I distance myself from commencement, I care less that I keep in touch and realize that I learned very little. </p>

<p>I have little skills, a very mediocre G.P.A., did pointless internships, and feel like I have grown very little as a human being. Some of this was just that I was stupid and ignorant, but most of it is on me. Now I am sitting here, four years and $200,000 dollars later and have very little to show. Moreover, I still have no passion, no focus, no drive, and no direction. I was a much more capable person when I was in high school. </p>

<p>I like to explain my esoteric degree by talking about how I grew, the broader skills I acquired, etc. All lies to help rationalize my decisions. Unemployment is nothing unique, but I feel so different because I don’t even have an ideal situation. Most of my classmates have some idea, something that gets them up in the morning. I don’t know if I ever have had that. </p>

<p>Reading this over, I do not mean to send melodramatic, but most of what I have said is true and I can’t help wish that I had done things very differently. This is not just about not having a job in this moment—it is more the realization that everything in my life I have “done” was just something that did have value—value that I could cross it off the list. </p>

<p>It just makes me sad and bitter to see folks going off to school, when I wasted four, formative years of my life. Years when I should have been growing, that I will never, ever have back.</p>

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<p>Im currently a senior in high school, so i don’t know many things about your current situation, but, if I may be so forward to suggest something…There’s gotta be something you can do. Have you considered the Peace Corps yet? That could open up a bunch of new opportunities for you…</p>

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<p>Don’t look at all the negatives. Sure you may not have had a great GPA and you spent a lot of money, but didn’t you learn some stuff and have some fun? You didn’t waste your years, they just weren’t quite as productive as you wanted, and having a college degree will really help you. It’s okay. Try posting this on the Parent’s Forum and they’ll have some actual advice about jobs and what not. Best of luck, I’m sure you’ll be fine. You’re just having a case of the blues.</p>

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<p>Thank you for the suggestions, yes I have considered PeaceCorps and AmeriCorps. It is more I kind of assumed it would all fall into place like it always has. And for someone who never had to find a direction, that can be a tough thing that I am still figuring out. And with all of this said, I know I have it pretty good. I don’t have a ton of loans, went to a top school, graduated with distinction in my field, etc.</p>

<p>I actually posted this on the wrong forum, but thank you for your consideration (i did post it on the parents forum).</p>