I just felt like making this post. It’s more a rambling vent post.
For the first time in my life, I am actually not upset about getting a lower grade than I would have normally gotten. I guess it has something to do with my current circumstances.
The semester before this, I had gone through a very traumatizing event and did not have much support to deal with the effects. Even though a lot of time has passed, the event still affects me. But, I have better support system of friends who care about me and who I also trust. I’ve also looked into therapy and seeing a psychiatrist- my first appointment is in two weeks.
This semester, I started out strong…but slowly had some bumps along the way to the end… I ended up getting 3 B+'s and an Incomplete (I expect an A in the course once my professor grades my paper). But somehow… I’m not even that upset. I guess it might be because on my final exams I got all A’s? I tried as much as I could given my situation so maybe that’s why I’m content? I’m not exactly happy or upset.
My gpa has fallen to a 3.7 …okay I know that’s not bad overall. This semester, my gpa was a 3.5 roughly…
Even though my performance was not my best, I’m more motivated to overcome my situation and start doing what I want to do. What I am capable of accomplishing. I want to be a better me this year, I guess too.
But, then I remember how I have a semester of W’s in all my courses and 1 W from this semester-- I wonder how I can explain that when I figure out whether I want to pursue a MS or PhD…some form of higher education. Even for internships when they ask for our academic transcripts, I worry about how that will be looked at. I have the basic requirements they are looking for, but should they take one glance closely…they might hold it against me.
Though this is a concern of mine, I feel that all I can do is just move forward and try my best. The rest will follow afterwards.
So right now, I’m content where I am even though I might be behind my original path and not meeting my past achievement levels.