<p>Sorry your porn star essay didn’t work out- nobody ever listens to me…
;)</p>
<p>*being that good man that I spoke about matters so much in life, more than probably anything else. I still can’t help but feeling down, that that is all my life will be. *</p>
<p>I’m confused.
You make a statement saying that being a good man,matters so much- more than anything else.
You make a statement saying that depresses you.
If something matters more than anything else to achieve, why would it be depressing?
It should be exhilarating!</p>
<p>It sounds that you actually need acknowledgement from others to feel accomplished, instead of doing what you think is meaningful.</p>
<p>Think about what you would do if everything you did was anonymous.
What would you still do anyway?</p>