<p>First semester of Junior year, I got a C+ and three B's.
All in my AP classes. I managed two A's in my easiest classes.</p>
<p>My dog Mishka passed away suddenly on the day of my finals in his sleep. I'll never understand why, but I'm guessing it was a cardiac or cerebral event, because she was perfectly fine the day before.
The night before, she was playful and happy like she always had been. She ate her food with the same voracious appetite she'd healthily maintained her whole life. She was perfectly fine.
I just don't know.</p>
<p>I ended up doing absolutely horribly on the finals. My teachers still don't know why.
It dropped my grades drastically.</p>
<p>I feel certain that I am utterly disqualified for most scholarships and summer programs. Many of these scholarships/programs only ask for a transcript, without any opportunity to explain hardships or poor circumstances.
I can only rely on merit aid, because my parents have too high of a yearly income, but also cannot afford to help me pay for college. However, considering the circumstances, merit aid no longer seems like an option.</p>
<p>Because of my better academic record previous to this year, I will still have a 3.85~3.7 by the end of 1st semester in senior year. However, I feel that my C will make that GPA completely irrelevant. It will seem as though I couldn't handle the rigor of AP classes. And perhaps I couldn't. </p>
<p>I almost feel as though it would have been better to get several B's than get that one C in my AP US History class. It is well known as one of the most difficult classes in my school, but dammit, I could have gotten straight A's this semester if it weren't for my irresponsibility.
And now I suppose I'll pay for it with a mediocre education.</p>