<p>Hi...I feel...horrible. Please don't judge me when you hear my story. I've always been very competitive and ambitious, and I've always believed that if you work hard, you can do anything. But my SAT results, twice over, have made my world come crashing down, my hopes and beliefs. I'll be honest~I'm not a strong person. I don't know how to deal with stress at all. I cry easily. But I know how to study hard with passion and diligence. I studied extensively over this past summer for the October 2012 SAT, and I got a 2320 with a 720 in Math, 800s in Writing and CR, and a 10 on the Essay. It was devastating to me...particularly because of the 720 in Math. Perhaps if I'd gotten a more evenly distributed score I wouldn't have felt so anguished then. Anyway, I resolved that I could do much better, and decided to re-take in January. I studied really hard, balancing my 5 AP courses in school, maintaining As, staying involved~I was so proud of myself. I took the Jan SAT. I got a 2300. Last night. I'm still recovering. I had to skip school because I have no energy, no life in me. I got a 730 in CR, 770 in Math, a 800 in Writing, and an 11 on the Essay. Isn't it funny? The category in which I had always done so well on...all the practice tests and exercises and even the first SAT~I'd always done near perfectly/perfectly in Critical Reading. And that category diminished the happiness I could have had from the increase in the math score from 720 to 770; the essay score from 10 to 11. My score, overall, decreased; my CR score, plummeted. I have no choice now; I have to re-take.</p>
<p>Otherwise colleges will see my drop in CR as evidence that the first time I was lucky. </p>
<p>Honestly, I have no idea...what happened. I'm so bewildered. I feel like I'm dreaming. I literally pinched myself when I saw my CR score.
And before you say that I'm hysterical, exaggerating, crazy...please, please try to understand me. I've worked and spent countless hours for the goal of a 2400, twice. I'm intending on applying to a few Ivy Leagues, namely Harvard and Yale. I don't know what to do. I mean, I know I NEED to re-take now...primarily because of the CR score...but...I feel that I've studied to the max. If you knew me...you'd know. I've definitely gone to the extreme when it comes to studying for the SAT.
This is my battle plan: Take the March SAT. Before then, flip through the CR sections of a prep book for an informal, relaxed review to build up my confidence. That's it. Oh, and I'll purchase a copy of my test from Collegeboard to see what I got wrong in CR and also Math and try to learn from my mistakes...that's it though.
I don't know what happened. Did I misbubble?? I remember that I was very nervous...but nervousness shouldn't...couldn't...affect my score...that much, could it? </p>
<p>Anyway. I just needed to vent. I feel...like...death. If I could get opinions, suggestions, reflections, or maybe just some kind, emotional support, I would be very grateful </p>
<p>(i'm a junior right now)</p>
<p>Thanks.</p>