<p>I have been agonizing what to do for a living - the question never stops.
Even after going to the business grad school, I still don't know what I like.</p>
<p>First of all, I still don't know who I am. My behavior seems bizzare even to myself. My academic performance was great in hight school BUT I did not study at all at first and went up because of my strong desire to be ranked #1. I ended up being top 3 at the end of every year but my grades fell to mediocre level at the beginning of every next year. I studied only to prove that I am one of the smartest. I had zero interests in studying. I read A LOT of books instead.</p>
<p>In college, I didn't study at all during the first 2 years. After realizing that I need to have good grades to get a job, I started to study and became on the Dean's list eventually.
My major was Humanities! What is wrong with me?</p>
<p>My second problem is that I lose interests after getting used to my job. In college, I wanted to have a marketing career at a multinational consumer company but I ended up working at finance field. Two years was a terrible time.</p>
<p>So I quit and moved to luckily where I wanted. After working at a new firm for three years, I realized that I don't love my job any more - it became routine, easy and repetitive. So I wanted to study the MBA.. I got into a prestigious school.</p>
<p>During MBA, I hated courses. Yes. I always hate to study. Most frameworks seemed so unrealistic and unhelpful to use in real life cases. Also I hate the teaching method. I am excited to find solutions and learn frameworks and insights during that journey but the school's framework-first-and-applying-later teaching method was annoying. I, of course, had very low GPA. </p>
<p>I've lost interests in marketing career. I realized that I'm not interested in studying except researching the unknown or mystery. What else can I do for a living? I don't even know who I am. Could you advise?</p>