Should I just lay down in front of a moving car at this point?

So I only applied to 6 schools: UCLA, UCSD, UCSB, UCR, CSUSB, & SDSU. I wanted to apply for more, but I didn’t have much money at the time, and my parents were convinced I’d get into anywhere I applied. They made me just apply where I really wanted to go and that has resulted in me hating my life. I’m going to be the first one to actually graduate high school and go to college so they’ve never really seen better or had anyone to compare me to. I’ve come to realize a 4.3 gpa isn’t uncommon in the application pool and community service/ clubs aren’t the strongest ECs when I didn’t have 10000000 awards or leadership positions. Now I’ve been rejected from my top choice schools: UCLA & UCSD. I was accepted to CSUSB. I haven’t heard anything from UCR or SDSU and now I’m waiting for Tuesday to come for UCSB. I don’t have much hope for it since I was denied from UCSD, and I think they accept pretty similar applicants so ya know how that goes. I had that local ELC thing, but from what I’ve read that just sends you to UCR or Merced. The only schools left aren’t really appealing to me anymore, so I’m wondering if it’d be better to just go to a community college for a couple of years and then try to transfer. I know it’s easier to get into a uc from a cc than from a CSU. My only concerns are not getting that “college experience” that is just oh so vital to college freshman, falling into a rut that ends with me not even being qualified enough to get into a uc from a cc, and hating my life for the next two years because I’ll have to live with my family for even longer. I wanted independence and to explore what’s outside of my city, but now I don’t think I’ll get to do that. I’m just stuck and don’t know where to go from here. I qualified to apply for the honors program at CSUSB, but idk how beneficial that would even be if I were to get in. Plus it’s where everyone from my high school is going. Maybe I should just give up and flip burgers for 10 years? Idk.

Time to take a deep breath and try to real in the panic. You haven’t heard from all of your schools yet. You said your parents only allowed you to apply where you really wanted to go, and you got an admission to one of those institutions. No you don’t have a long list of acceptances to choose from, but you only need one, you can only attend one. Maybe it isn’t your top choice, maybe not as highly ranked as some of the others (if that’s important to you), but you have a place to go. It might be nice to run into a familiar face at college once in a while, so knowing people there from your high school isn’t necessarily a bad thing. Being able to go to college is a gift to be appreciated. You get from it what you put into it. Congratulations!

Please don’t make statements about standing in front of a car. This is a serious statement and should be taken seriously.
You really shouldn’t be going anywhere if you mental health causes you to think this way.
See a mental health counselor and talk to someone.

UCLA and UCSD received thousands of applications. Not getting in was a more common occurrence. If you can’t handle this, then you’re not ready for a change.

It’s not something that you would even think about in causing hurt and pain to yourself and to others who care about you.

Or go to Merced and get that ‘freshman’ experience and a UC diploma.

What a horrible, horrible title for a thread. I agree, the real issue here doesn’t seem to be college acceptances, it’s your mental heath.

I would suggest speaking to your guidance counselor at school today, and showing her this thread. Your first post appears to be a cry for help.

Unless you missed one of the A-G classes, SDSU should accept you and will give you a great 4 year experience…

Not sure what your major is but you will definitely get a great education UCR, UCSB, CSUSB, or SDSU!! You have choices unlike a lot of people…time to appreciate that!

Apply to the honors college and give yourself one more choice.
You applied to colleges you liked. You got into at least one of them and I think you have a great shot at SDSU.
UcMerced isn’t bad - it’s residential w a UC, smaller classes than at other campuses.
Btw, your GPA is great. There’s nothing wrong with your GPA. However selective universities turn down lots of qualified applicants. Rooting for you.

UC’s can be fickle like that. Some schools like UCLA and UCSD accept students with low GPAs and reject those with higher ones - regardless of extra-curricular activities. That’s just how it is. Not a reflection of your value.

I’ve got friends from all over the spectrum on whether the ‘college experience was worth it’. For some it’s great and for others, not all cracked to what people make it out to be. You’ll figure out how to make it work wherever, however, and whenever you go (CC/CSU/UC).

I personally went the CC route (more for financial reasons than anything else). I’m transferring this year, and honestly I loved CC. Smaller classes and I still talk to a bunch of my professor cause of it. If you go to CC, it’s only 2 years if you do it right. I mean, it was a tough two years and I had plenty of doubts during, but it works.

If you get into honors, you’ll get priority registration which can be a great deal if you’ve got an impacted major.

On a last note, it was real hard to commit to my school since it’s my local UC and pretty close to home. I wanted the independence too and this last month was real stressful 'cause I always tried to imagine myself at each campus and which I’d be happier at. Took me a while to feel confident in my decision.

I can’t blame you for feeling what you’re feeling now. All I can say is do your research, consider what everyone here has posted, reach to people, talk things out, and know that it’s not all over. Your schooling is one of but many chapters in life.