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No, absolutely nothing. I took 8 advils, thinking I'd pass out at the least, possibly die. Nothing at all happened, and I'm glad.
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<p>hehe, a friend of mine accidently took 18 advils in 6hrs (he misread the directions <_< no joke), and all he got was a stomach ache.</p>
<p>WishWash...I too am happy that you are still here. Your life has value no matter how you feel today or last week or tomorrow. You have gifts and talents that are waiting to be nurtured and shared. Suicide is NOT the answer. I urge you to find a therapist that you can talk to on a regular basis. Ask an adult that you trust, or call your family doctor for a referral. Kep asking if you don't find the right person for you.</p>
<p>Being a teen is not easy, it wasn't easy 10 years ago, it wasn't easy 20 years ago. Stop living in the competitive pressure cooker that so many of your peers are in. Your college career will be what you make of it whether it be at a top school or a mid-tier school or a community college. Find out who you are, be true to yourself, and live life to the fullest. Believe me when I tell you that a happy life is NOT dependent on making a million or more a year...be happy with yourself and things will work out. Best of luck. You're in my prayers.</p>
<p>OK, I am far from psychologist and stuff, but just from experience, what gets people most down is the feeling that it won't get better...and quite generally, we're too young to know to say things like this.</p>
<p>Insane, never thought I'd find such a thread on CC. Best wishes to the OP - I hope that beyond just the standard reasons (i.e., intrinsically why it's bad), you can sort of feel what I mean....think of yourself at age 50! Probably will be nowhere how you are right now, lots of things will change. All the reason to give oneself the chance to reach there.</p>
<p>Wishwash,
I made similar suicide attempts as yours when I was much younger, so please listen to my perspective.</p>
<p>Do whatever you need to do to get help from a social worker or psychologist plus get assessed by a psychiatrist to see if you need medication for depression.</p>
<p>When I was younger, I mistakenly thought that psychotherapy was only for people who were "crazy', the type of disturbed people whom you see in bad movies. So, I didn't get any psychotherapy until I was in my mid 20s, and a friend literally forced me to get treatment.</p>
<p>I did not make any more suicide attempts after that, but still, thoughts of suicide would cross my mind whenever I faced any kind of adversity. I also had several bouts of depression despite having years of therapy by mostly excellent psychotherapists. Some of them suggested that I try medication, something I even had read that when medication is combined with therapy, that's the best treatment for depression.</p>
<p>But, I refused to consider medication, believing it was for people with far more serious problems. </p>
<p>Finally, when I was about 50 and had been hospitalized for chest pains that ended up being due to depression, not a heart problem, I decided that I would try medication. It took more than a month of increasing the doseage for me to feel the effects, but once I did, my life completely changed. </p>
<p>I have been on medication for about 4 years, and have not since had a serious bout of depression despite having some adverse situations like everyone's life has. I also now realize what I had been missing in life. I still have normal ups and downs, but I don't have crash landings like I used to. I also don't dive into the pits of despair when unfortunate things happen to me.</p>
<p>I've posted my story in hopes that it will inspire you to get professional help so you won't have to wait until you are middle age to discover what life should be like.</p>
<p>Best wishes to you.</p>
<p>i am sorry if i am intruding as i dont know any of this beforehand as u guys do. but i would like to day that whatever may happen, there are worse thngs that may come and outliving adversity is bravery that one shud be proud of, at the moment and even later on.</p>
<p>no bad is too bad n there is alwz a way. we try to maintain a level we think we should maintain in our actions n life but thats nt really important. whats important is u. And nth will be too bad that one shud resort to thoughts/actions about harming oneself. everybody deserves better.</p>
<p>I apologize i was not clear enough but i dont know how to make myself clear...i know what i want to say but i m not being able to say it.</p>
<p>i just want to u to know that...u shud rock on...</p>
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<p>I know this is a serious topic, but I can't help but lol at this. Lmao. </p>
<p>My piece of advice to you is to never take yourself too seriously.</p>
<p>You know, I PM'd this to WishWash, and I'd like to pass this on to anyone just passing by. I think anyone can say "Go to get therapy" and whatnot, but oftentime the main problem itself is the environment one is. Just saying "Things will get better." or adding smoke and mirrors doesn't really improve things as much as being out of that element will. Or perhaps both? Here's some things I told him though:</p>
<p>I've been reading around your posts and have seen you around. You know, I'm not gonna say the typical stuff "I know how you feel. I went through the same. Suicide is terrible." Nah man, I couldn't honestly tell you how much I've wanted to these past few years. Sometimes I just sit at school and just feel like " Hey, you know if you do it right now, then you can stop suffering."</p>
<p>But no man! You have dreams right? I've seen you around here. It's okay to be angry and depressed, but use that as motivation. I'm telling you, that is the greatest motivator there is. Like I find myself slipping often at school, but everytime someone tells me I can't go to where my dreams are at, I just use that as fuel to the fire and keep on going twice as strong. I'm not saying don't be sad, just use your sadness to create something beautiful.</p>
<p>I know you've got dreams. Everyone does. The only difference is that most people are afraid to carry out their dreams, thus play it safe. Do you want to be like the average, the masses? Hell no you don't! I mean, if you really hate things that much, you should use that as motivation to get out of there man. Don't stop at Purdue; apply far and wide. Go for your dreams!</p>
<p>And, you know, I'm proud that there's someone on CC that is challenging this status quo here. I don't have a 4.0 GPA either; all throughout high school I've had five As and a C in Math. All honors, but I have a 3.7 GPA and there's that. I go to a high school in a lower-middle-income neighborhood near LA where all of the model students go to UC Berkeley. It's a good school, but that's not where I want to be. I want to go to Brown, or somewhere in the Northeast. And you know, lots of people are going to say "Yeah, you don't have the grades or the test scores to do that. You'll never get there!" But I'll tell you one thing I have that they don't: heart. Passion. Will. Determination.</p>
<p>And those traits will get you further than anything else. Have you heard of Kanye West? Everyone calls him arrogant and spoiled, but if you see him five years ago compared to now, you've gotta love the guy. When you listen to his interviews, he just KNEW he'd become a huge famous musician.</p>
<p>So in the end, I'm just saying man, keep your hope alive. I'm also a junior too, and I'm working double time to improve my grades. I don't have any Ds, but I'd like to get a few of those Cs to Bs and those Bs to As. Always work for improvement man; don't settle for anything. And develop your passions. Become obsessed with them. Sleep with them on your pillow at night. Hold a picture of them (or even it!) on your wall and just throw on music and stare at it day and night. Get brochures from your favorite schools to read through whenever you feel absolutely numb. I'm telling you it'll make things seem so much better.</p>
<p>And you know, screwing up is part of it. You just try, try again and try much harder. So don't be afraid of it either.</p>
<p>Sorry if I'm rambling, just, you know, keep the faith!</p>
<p>cheer up wishbone (jk). Try and find something that you can preoccupy yourself with , so you wouldn't feel down all the time! :)</p>
<p>I don't really know if therapy is always helpful. My parents sent me for a few months to a therapist and it never really did anything. It wasn't about suicide, it was for issues with my father (though according to my sister they were somewhat afraid that I would hurt myself and I guess I did, but my method of choice was then and always has been self-starvation).
My sister's mother sent her to therapy for the same thing, though her issues were much worse. Our father abandoned her and denied his parenthood, he just hit me, and not even that much. I guess there were underlying issues. Anyway, what worked for her was time, and I think time is starting to work for me, even though I pretty much only talk to my father when I'm asking him for money. Every situation's different, so maybe therapy will work for you, if you decide to choose that route, but if it doesn't, don't think you're a lost cause.</p>
<p>at least youve got ur minnesotan posse to alert the police if you begin to seem disturbed on CC.</p>
<p>Not implying anything to WishWash here (I don't even know his situation), but committing suicide because of grades or school and that kind of bs is ridiculous. </p>
<p>This is probably one of the few times where I don't envy my friends that are rich, got-everything-going-for-them, never-had-any-problems sorta people...they get shaken up by things like this.</p>
<p>you'll get over it, and good thing you're still alive.</p>
<p>I'm glad you're still here. One of my relatives did so, and it wasn't pretty for our family. Good choice and happy 2009!</p>
<p>Aww. WishWash, I'm glad you're still with us.</p>
<p>I know how it feels to have tried it. Tried it twice for various reasons. If you need anyone to talk to, I'm here for you! :) hang in there.</p>
<p>You learned something so, so valuable, you know?
As a sufferer from severe anxiety (I take medication for it) and minimal depression (also medication for that), I know where you're coming from.
There is MORE to life than school, but it's no doubt an intrinsic part to the teenage stratosphere.<br>
Furthermore, I'm incredibly glad you're doing well, and have gained wisdom from the experience to take something positive from it. Thank you for sharing for myself and other users. Feel free to PM. x</p>
<p>omg it must be cc. it always makes me depressed. but then im like , wait at least im going to college.</p>
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Wow, you don t say.
True in many different senses. I, being depressed sometimes, frequently feel that Ill never be able to change who I am (and that scares me). One of the other major reasons I get depressed is sheer boredom, as in I dont want to do anything in life. It seems that I havent found my hobby or niche.</p>
<p>Imagine how the Harvard forum people feel now, eh WishWash? LOL, bunch of jerks.</p>
<p>lols....tht story below was v.humorous :O)</p>
<p>Hey wishwash, glad ur still w/us!!!!! :D</p>
<p>Your life is always meaningful to someone and don't you forget that. I'm glad you made the right decision :)</p>
<p>Here here now, this message deserves applause.</p>
<p>Thanks WishWash. Best of luck in your future endeavors. Glad you're still able to have some by being here with us.</p>
<p>gl man. stop worryin so much about school and get out more :).</p>