I’ve been deliberating on this for a few months, honestly. It’s been really hard for me to get adjusted to college life, and I feel like that’s a big part of why I want to transfer. I haven’t really found my niche/a super great group of friends yet, which makes me feel inadequate, especially because at a school this small, everyone seems to already know everybody else. There are a lot of things I really dislike about Amherst – how tiny the town is/its location, the social atmosphere at college (literally the only thing to do on weekends/all anyone wants to do is party and I’m not about that life), the small student body, how limited the course selections are, and how few research opportunities there are on campus. I guess my two biggest concerns are location and the social atmosphere, though, which seems a little shallow of me. If I were to apply as a transfer, I’d apply to Brown, Columbia, and UPenn, although I applied to Brown as a HS senior and got rejected.
I really want to transfer because everything about Amherst is nauseatingly tiny and I’ve been steadily growing more and more depressed and jaded (and I’ve only gotten through 1/8 of college), but at the same time, I’m really worried for a few reasons. I’m not sure I can get great recommendations from two professors because I didn’t really talk much to any of my first semester professors. Of all the schools I was accepted to, Amherst was also the best when it came to financial aid (paying 9k/year instead of 17-18k/year), although I could probably swing paying more a year if I needed to. But much more than that, I’m terrified that I won’t be able to get into the schools I want to get into. I’m not coming from a community college/I don’t have a super great story to tell. I go to a great school, so it feels like I don’t have a good reason to complain – I’m much more fortunate than many others. I just really, really don’t like it here. I’m not sure if the fact that I’m coming from Amherst is detrimental to my chances or not. Plus, my acceptance record last year wasn’t as great as I hoped it would be. I got rejected from Harvard, Yale, Princeton, and Brown, waitlisted at the University of Chicago, Williams, and even Amherst (although I got off the waitlists for both LACs), and accepted into Bowdoin, Middlebury, and Carleton. I’m wary of applying to the three Ivies I have lined up because they all have acceptance rates small enough that I probably wouldn’t be able to get in.
I’m not worried about high school grades/test scores (4.0 unweighted w/ lots of APs, 2330 SAT), but I am a little worried about HS and college extracurriculars/my current GPA at Amherst. My college GPA is likely (my calc grade still hasn’t been released yet) to be a 3.6-3.7, which seems like it might be a little low. My extracurriculars in high school weren’t super great/didn’t line up with the fields I was interested in pursuing in college, which I think hurt a lot. And while I did participate in a handful of clubs/organization on campus this past semester, it doesn’t really feel like I accomplished anything. All of the organizations/meetings were fairly low commitment, although I’m not really sure what I’m expected to have accomplished in a semester of college. I guess it just doesn’t feel like my chances at getting into these schools are any better than they were my senior year of high school. They might even be lower? I just don’t know if it’s worth applying to these schools, especially when I also have to work on time allocation because I’m also applying to internships/research opportunities. And I do know that if I want to apply as a transfer, it would have to be this year or nothing, since applying after sophomore year might mean having to redo sophomore year at a different school, and I don’t want to spend five years in undergrad.
Is it worth applying? I really don’t want to spend the next 3.5 years of college unhappy, but at the same time, I don’t want to apply and get heartbroken if I get three rejections.