<p>Unless I get off the UChicago waitlist, this is the decision I have to make.</p>
<p>Swarthmore will cost around $50k/year, while Schreyers will cost around $25k/year. I do plan on going to law school. My parents are willing to finance a Swarthmore attendance in full, but any money that I save by going to PSU will be redirected to funding law school, which they otherwise would not finance.</p>
<p>I stayed overnight at Swarthmore's Ride the Tide program, but I have only had cursory experiences with PSU (since I've heard so much about it and so many of my friends are going there). Everything was as expected. It's not that I'm not sure what these two schools are like, it's just that I'm not sure what I want.</p>
<p>On one hand, I want to change my lifelong role as the rebellious/lazy slacker. The biggest incentive for me for attending Swarthmore is that it's supposed to tease the intellectual out of you, that its vibrant classrooms and stimulating student body are supposed to release you of any educational slump that you've been experiencing in high school. At Penn State, on the other hand, I can very easily see myself slipping into the mediocre obscurity that comes from low expectations and generally lower achieving student body. Yet I also acknowledge the strong possibility that I've bitten off more than I can chew, that I'll simply flounder in Swarthmore's rigorous environment whereas I can simply grow out of my old patterns and succeed when left to myself in the less intense atmosphere at PSU.</p>
<p>I'm a pretty awkward kid and Swarthmore is known for its awkward kids. I can definitely see myself fitting in more at Swarthmore than at PSU. Spectator sports has always puzzled me, and half of the activities that my peers enjoy seem alien to me. My sense of humor can be described as quirky at best. Yet I also realize that while diversity is the spice of life, too much of one flavoring can yield just another form of blandness. I can also see myself becoming bored of too many intellectual activists. The truth is I enjoy a wide range of individuals - sports freaks, job oriented preprofessionals, conservatives, and even "normal" people - and let's face it, most types of people usually don't have a small liberal arts college as their first choice. I know that there exists a wide spectrum at any college, but if Ride the Tide was any indication, and if Swat really is smaller than my current high school, well I just don't want to be stuck in a stiflingly small environment.</p>
<p>I have always had a laidback life (my parents are the opposite of helicopter parents) and I love the breathing room. Yet I always felt that this slower-paced, less goal-oriented lifestyle has put me at disadvantages in many ways. Yet (again) I don't know how I would respond to a more personal environment like Swarthmore.</p>
<p>And is the small liberal arts education really that much better than PSU Honors'? I've heard a lot of different opinions, ranging from "Honors colleges confers a significant advantage to a school that's already in the USNWR top 50" to "Law schools don't give a **** about whether you graduate with honors". The worst part is that I've never been exposed to a stimulating classroom environment, so I don't even know if I'll take full advantage of its benefits. Yes I know about Swat's high law school placement statistics, but I like to think that this is because of self-selectivity; for example, I can see myself in the bottom half of my Swat class, while being in the top half of my PSU class.</p>
<p>Oh and I'm extremely perturbed that Swat has 7 libraries but only 1 cafeteria.</p>
<p>I guess it all comes down to the fact that I don't trust myself enough to make such a long term decision, given my limited life experiences. Now that I'm nearing the end of my post, I realize this is really ridiculous asking strangers to help me with this basically personal dilemma, but it's been therapeutic typing all this out anyways. :)</p>