<p>so i'm a high school junior and all throughout high school i've been under a whole lot of pressure but still end up feeling inadequate or getting less-than-impressive grades. i know 99% of every high school student in the world has this kind of pressure but some nights i stay up until 3 am thinking about colleges and how i'll never get into the ones i want to...blah blah blah</p>
<p>my freshman year i had almost all pre-ap classes and my GPA was about a 3.8, mostly As but some Bs
my sophomore year wasn't so great, i had 1 AP class and 2 honors and the rest were regs, i had about a 3.7 GPA, As and Bs
this year i'm doing much better but still find myself struggling; i currently am taking 4 AP classes and the rest are regs (probably should've taken some honors) and my weighted GPA as of right now is like a 4.27, and i'm going to keep it up and bring it up this year and my senior year</p>
<p>i was in national honors society in my sophomore year and i'm doing it again this year, along with national art honors society as well. i'm really interested in art but also in politics, history, english, and science. i've gotten high scores on my art in scholastic art contests. this year i'm hoping to do so as well. in my sophomore year i was on the drill team if that has any significance lol</p>
<p>the problem is that last year when i met with my counselor and parents about schools it was very disappointing. my pre-PSAT (yeah lol) test scores were not great except for reading and writing/grammar. plus my class rank at the time was barely in the top half???? i'm sure it's higher now but that continues to freak me out lol</p>
<p>my parents REALLY don't want me going far away (i live in texas) but i don't care at all I REALLY want to go to the northeast...like new york. i would kill to go to NYU. it's probably too expensive. other than that honestly i don't know where i would go. i could apply to UT austin but i don't think i could make it in there. i was thinking about places in new jersey (i was born there) but i don't even know where to start.</p>
<p>i'm so sorry this is so long. i've been thinking about college every night and it's just the beginning of my junior year. i've had panic attacks about it. it is ridiculous. i'm sorry i just keep talking !!!!!!!!! help !!!!!!!!!!!</p>