<p>I have already given my list of colleges to my letter-recommendation-writers (and amended it once, saying "I promise that's the last time I'll edit it).
I know, I know, they won't mind if I edit it again and it's not worth risking a perfect college experience for.</p>
<p>I am prepared to work hard in college, of course, and I'm excited about it. But Swarthmore, like I said, seems to have a particularly high workload/stress level (there's even a sticky about it on CC-- it's not just my own weird perception). My tourguide at Haverford, when he was talking about taking classes at Bryn Mawr and Swat, talked about the differences in academic atmosphere among the colleges and mentioned that Swarthmore is more competitive as well. And again, I have friends/relatives that echo this (upon graduating last year, one posted a note on Facebook describing how Swathmore eats your soul and he's glad to have escaped alive and good luck to all the people still there!)</p>
<p>At Wesleyan, people were VERY involved with ECs and seemed to be really enjoying and savoring every activity they did, not just trucking through mounds of work. Many of the things I am interested in (being politically active, choral/a'cappella groups, religious services) are extra-curricular, so this will be an important part of my college experience, and simple eating, going to class, and working wouldn't be as fulfilling for me.</p>
<p>I haven't "demonstrated that I can't handle the load". I have made straight A's so far and have taken many AP and honors classes (I may be valedictorian). It has all just been harder on me emotionally than it has been on my peers. While I am very passionate about what I learn and want very much to continue to explore the things that interest me, I'd prefer to do so in a less intense environment, if possible. I am capable of doing it in a stressful one, but I'd prefer not to.</p>
<p>[Note: After my previous post, everyone is saying "Wow, you really shouldn't be going to college at all". A complete 180 from "Swarthmore isn't that bad, I'm sure you could handle it". I guess I went too far in my description-- I was trying to make a point that I wouldn't enjoy myself at Swat but I went too far . Please, everyone, happy medium].</p>