<p>-not getting in anywhere due to my lack of ecs, community service, and honors/ap classes. oh, and the fact that my freshman year grades sucked doesnt help either[and no i dont have a good excuse except that sometimes i get really depressed for no reason and that causes me to not care. i know thats a really lame explanation so i cant really address why it happened in my essay like people suggest].
-not finding a teacher who believes they can write a good letter of recommendation for me(im not close to any teachers due to always being ‘the quiet one’).
-not coming up with a really good topic for my essay because even though i love writing/am good at it, writing about myself is something i suck at because i dont find myself or my life very interesting.
-not being able to pull up my awful SAT score in math. </p>
<p>granted, im thinking about just starting out at a community college, in which case none of those things would matter. id still have to worry about hating my college, not finding the perfect university, not making friends there, and still not being able to decide what i want to do with my life after my two years at the community college are up. not really related to ‘admissions’ but still. </p>
<ul>
<li>Not getting into a top school (how shallow of me)</li>
<li>Getting a crappy SAT score that won’t budge no matter how many times I retake.</li>
</ul>
<p>-Getting rejected from everywhere and ending up at the college down the street from me that basically has an open-door policy, or my state college, which I visited and all I can remember is the filthy sinks in the science department and when I touched a book in the library my hand became covered in grime. Plus I hate my town/state.
-Not finding a college I like completely.
-Ending up at a college where I don’t fit in, and my college years become as lame as my high school ones.
-So much stuff to remember! I’m afraid I’m not going to remember all of it. Like, forget to send essays or something. xD</p>
<p>-Ending up at a college where I don’t fit in, and my college years become as lame as my high school ones.</p>
<p>^ word.</p>
<p>My second biggest fear is not getting into Stanford period. If I actually applied myself, from my current school I COULD make it (a big COULD, but a could nonetheless) except for the fact I lost the applying myself skill and too many other people overwork themselves with the same skill at my school. Sigh. It’s most likely inevitable that i won’t get in, but as of now I don’t have definite proof of it happening, thus I am merely scared and not acknowledging it.</p>
<p>My real biggest fear is going to a college I don’t like, or haven’t even thought of (e.g. getting accepted into that safety school I found during the summer before my senior year when I had my entire list planned out since sophomore year. that kind of thing.)</p>
<p>Getting rescinded from the college I’d be going to.
Not getting into any schools other than my safeties.
Not at least get wait-listed to an Ivy-level school.
Rejection across the board.
Having to settle for a school.</p>
<p>I only want to go to ONE university. For me it’s Ni*<strong><em>ing or bust! (I’m Canadian.) It’s one of the top ranked, yet smallest universities in Canada and absolutely perfect. FAR away from this city, semi-close to family I love, cold, and remote. I’m absolutely terrified that a) I won’t be able to even APPLY this year because I screwed up second semester of this year (I won’t know which of the four classes I passed this past semester for another few weeks) and b)I won’t get into Ni</em></strong><em>ing’s Honour’s B.A. of History program. It’s only a 70% average, but I keep having nightmares where I’m looking at my final report card which has a ridiculously high average (like 93%) then opening a letter from Ni</em><strong><em>ing saying “You aren’t good enough.” It’s honestly pretty frightening. Then there’s the travel issue I just want to get INTO Ni</em></strong>*ing and figure things out from there.</p>
<p>Oh wow, the university name has a “curse word” in it. LOL.</p>
<p>Also, I’m not sure who posted it but NO you REALLY do not want to go to Windsor. The university itself is great, the city FAILS. There is absolutely NOTHING to do here.</p>