I just took the sat last week and one of my applications is still waiting for my scores for it to be complete.
I have severe anxiety and didn’t get any sleep before the test, and I am 100% positive I did absolutely awful.
I was very confident I would ace everything but math and end up with an acceptable score, but I was so tired and on the verge of yet another panic attack that I ran out of time on the reading portion and had probably 15 questions I had to guess on. (Which, combined with my usual low scores in math, probably placed me somewhere around a 900 on the whole test.) Im homeschooled and have a high gpa (3.8) but I fear that with my low sat scores colleges will assume grade inflation.
Ive considered taking a gap year, as my mental health is becoming a bigger concern and I am currently seeking out therapy. I decided against a gap year though, and I feel the best thing for me is to go to community college for at least a year or two and eventually transfer over to the main school I was planning on going to.
My question is, how do I withdraw the application to said school? Im so embarrassed of them receiving my scores. I already know Ill be rejected, but I feel actually receiving a rejection letter would somehow break me even worse.
How do I email them about withdrawing my application? Do I mention its because I fear I severely underachieved on the sat? Would mentioning the anxiety be too much? I know they know many students suffer with test anxiety, I just hate the fact that this will look like my gpa was somehow not accurate and that I’m a complete idiot.
Or, should I not withdraw my application at all? Would the school still get my sat scores sent to them even after withdrawing my application?
Im honestly so stressed on this, and any advice on how to proceed would be greatly appreciated. Thank you!