Academically Dismissed (I AM THE BIGGEST FAILURE ON EARTH)

I recently was informed that I’ve been academically dismissed from school. 2016 was not the year for me what so ever. I lost 3 people ever so close to me and I’m still coping with it, and I’ve been dealing with being away from my siblings for this long in the worst ways possible. I know that I have to speak with my academic dean to get back into school for the upcoming semester, I’m just terrified that she won’t understand how horrible this year was for me. I just feel so hopeless and lost at the situation. It’s as if no matter what I do, its never going to be good enough. I want nothing more and will do absolutely anything to get back in school.
Is there anything I can do to not only get back in school, but also help with my depression?

Get thee to thy college counseling center posthaste. Seriously. You need help, and that’s the first place to go.

You can request expungement of grades depending on schools policies and please go to the health center- they can advise you or help you find help dealing with the issues you have faced and how they are making you feel.Speak to someone close to you; confide in your parents or professor or friend. Someone you can trust- they can help!