<p>I am not doing well in college and was thinking of committing suicide. However, last time I went on medical leave I made a promise to my school that I wouldn't kill myself as a student there, which I intend to uphold because I feel great loyalty towards my school. I also wouldn't want a lot of my classmates knowing I'm dead because I don't want it to disrupt their lives. Therefore, if I wanted to kill myself I would have to withdraw from school first.</p>
<p>However, I am worried that if I withdraw, and decide to stay alive, they will not let me back in. How strict are most schools about readmitting students who have left? Do they have to know the reason you left and the reason you're coming back? If so, can you help me think of what to tell them? Thanks!</p>
<p>First, you should be talking to a psychiatrist if you’re considering killing yourself. First thing tomorrow, call your school’s health centre and schedule an appointment.</p>
<p>I took a leave of absence/withdrawal at my school, I had to apply for reinstatement. I have no idea how strict they are, I just wrote an essay telling the truth about why I withdrew and what I have done to make sure I don’t do it again.</p>
<p>if you’re thinking about killing yourself, then I would say that you have a bigger problem than whether the school will let you back in or not.</p>
<p>They are not going to wave their finger at you for your circumstances, which seem to be a little extreme.</p>
<p>Thanks for your replies :)</p>
<p>I’m really scared of talking to the health center or telling any of the administration the truth about why I’m withdrawing. It seems like if I told them they’d put me on leave and wouldn’t let me come back. Last time they heard I was suicidal they kicked me out and it took a very compelling argument for them to let me back in. Also, this has happened twice already, so I don’t think they’d be lenient with me at all or believe me if I came back and said I was better.</p>
<p>I feel like it’s not legal to kick out a student because they’re suicidal.</p>
<p>Maybe you need more professional help though if this is the third time you’ve seriously been considering suicide.</p>
<p>they probably didn’t want you to take classes because they foresaw that you might withdraw again, which was accurate, evidently. You should really get this suicide thing taken care of asap.</p>
<p>I used to feel suicidally depressed–and I had a lot to be depressed about–but my faith in Jesus and my fear of what would happen to my soul if I committed the sin of self-murder kept me alive. And that’s what suicide is, it is the murder of a person who happens to be you. You may feel that unlike other murders where the victim does not give consent, that suicide is different and less heinous because the victim is “consenting,” but he or she only “consents” out of coercion. They have let Earthly feelings like despair, guilt, sadness, fear, and anger bully them into “consenting.”</p>
<p>I do not believe your life is not yours to take, any more than is a stranger’s life is mine to take. God gives life. God wants to give us gifts in life, I know he has gifted me. But you don’t know what God has in store for you if you kill yourself.</p>
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<p>And in case you’re not really religious, here’s one reality check that helped me when I wanted to end it in high school: people commit suicide because they want to stop feeling pain and anguish. Ironically, you can’t feel that relief if you’re dead. The last thing you’ll know is whatever it is that is trying to defeat you, you won’t ever know if it’s gone.</p>
<p>In other words, it’s a permanent “solution” to a temporary problem.</p>